A Saturday night....
Tonight...was pretty good considering the circumstances. Since about 4pm today I was bummed right the fuck out. Because, Christine wasn't allowed to come to the picnic we planned, come to the punk show tonight, and just plain come over at all! I'm not sure what the reason was but her parents said she wasn't allowed. So that made me mad. She said it was her fault but it totally wasn't. Nobody has control over their parent's actions. Well I guess some kids do but most normal people don't. So yeah, I decided since she wasn't allowed to even come over I might as well go to the punk show. I mean, it beats sitting around my room all night. When I got there for the first couple sets I was pretty bummed out, just sitting around thinking about how I could be with the love of my life at that moment. And then Nardwuar went on. And yeah I had fun and forgot my troubles for a little bit. But there would always be a spot where I'd think of what I was doing, and feel a sort of guilt for having fun while Christine sits at home most likely bored as a stick. Then after that set I went outside and hung out with Caity and Kyle and them. I was acting pretty strange because I was so effin tired. I did a whole bunch of crazy stuff. I got Kyle to hip-check me like 20 times...it hurt but it got laughs so I thought what the heck. Everyone asked if I was on something but true to my word I wasn't. And then, I'd think about Christine, and I'd just be overcome with sadness. I think I missed Christine the worst I ever have tonight. I did have loads of fun tonight and acted like a goof. But I missed her SO much. And I guess I kind of feel bad because I knew that I should've been having fun with her...and if not at least be at home trying to phone her or something trying to not make her feel bad. So for that Christine, I'm sorry. Even though I guess I shouldn't be but that's how I feel. And for all you guys at the show tonight:Drew!, Angela, Kyle, Caity, Tyler, Logie, Hayley, Kristin, Chase...some other people I probably don't know...Thanks. Thanks for not making me feel bad and for helping me have the best time possible. With that...I'm done...