Aug 04, 2004 19:52
why is it that life will be going so perfectly and then everything goes wrong at once leaving you wisihing you were never born? my life has been nothing but a roller coaster of happy, not happy, happy, not happy. theres never a middle ground. i try to make due with what ive been given and put on a pretty (haha not) smile even when things are bad... BUT IM FUCKING FED UP!
im so sick of being poor. im so sick of the lies that are going on all around me. im so incredibly sick of barely making it week to week. i wish we had the little bit of "comfortable living" we had before. ive been in this situation too many times. im sick of my dad finding good temporary jobs and then losing them. im sick of finding someone i love and then them leaving. i was so happy with ben and now he hardly talks to me. im also sick of wondering why. im sick of being alone, bored, on the computer. im sick of work and now im sick of not having any (litterally) hours. im sick of drama and im sick of two faced lying bitches who are psychopaths when it comes to guys. im sick of being fat, losing a lil, then gaining it back. im sick of being too poor to get a gym membership. im sick of being ditched by my friends. im sick of tv. im sick of the internet. im sick of my birds screaming. did i mention im sick of being poor?!... i picked out a whole wopping 8 things i want for school clothes from hottopic.com... but i doubt ill get them. my mom keeps suggesting i get my clothes from WALMART. im SICK OF WALMART. im sick of my life as it is. im sick of living at home and i really wish i could go to UCD NOW...cos i really am sick of the people i havta/will havta see at SPC.
i wish i had a life. a real life. not this supressed pile of shit.