Waffle heads & syrup brains!
CUTE
Time to get a little more personal, its a journal after all, right?
I warn anyone who is contemplating reading this, its not for the easily grossed out.
Growing up this much, in such a short window of time has been pleasantly expeditious. Everyday I am getting lifted!!! I have barely taken time to realize how much I have changed since my 22nd birthday. I can not explain what kicked my ass so swiftly ,but man, ever since then, the shuttle bus into adulthood has really accelerated its speed. I got a lead foot on life baby!!!! I dont mean to toot my own horn, but, previously I relied totally on support from my parents, nicotine ( i should stop talking about this, but I am very proud of myself), fake friendships, an extremely trivial point of view, and too much booze. I was un able to stand up for myself and full of hate.
At age 17, I dropped out of highschool and I ran away from my more than comfortable home, to a junky infested area of Toronto. I moved there to live with my boyfriend at the time. I learned many lessons through that disheartening experience. Most likely would not be the same girl today, but it seemed as though the twinkle in my eye grew very dull, DULL, DULL. I had a difficult time relating to people, and found feelings of social anxiety routine . I was completely removed, physically and mentally. I let myself become a doughy, dreary sap, caught up in a doomed relationship. I left Toronto after exactly one year to the date of my arrival. Good riddance, I say!
During my highschool years , it seemed as though I was destined to become something great, i truly believe that. Until grade 11, I was creating a path for myself full of extra curicular activities (mostly artisitic endeavours). I had goals set in my mind and saw to it that I would complete my projects. Eventually, I became eluded by boys, partying and dressing myself in a way that did not correctly portray myself at all. I was all mixed up! I thought there was no looking back, and I lost myself permanently. Thankfully I was wrong!
These days, I am noticing facets of my personality restored. Drawing daily has been very rewarding, and I am happy to see I am back at it.
This entry is very cheeseball and cocktail wienies but I can not help myslelf, shits too real. I would feel silly if I did not mention a large part of my elation equation, my boyfriend. I have known him for a long long while, and we took sometime to tell each other how we felt. I have always thought very highly of him, Iam very lucky to be with Todd. WHATTA MAN.