old shit just so i don't lose it.

[oingoandboingo]

You my dear,

were better off

away in Chicago

shaking hands and drinking

giving me the shivers

hoping that the plane would crash

into the ocean

sending us to the end

of all my reasons.

and I'll lie and say 'I love you...'

hold your hand

until you drown

tell you it will be okay..

The beautiful thing,

is that all the while

I'll smile

Knowing it's so much better

this way.

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in silence

i go spiraling

and the bottom has dropped out

what seems forever

things go further down

and not until all the pills are gone

does it register

everything you once loved

will be gone in one hour and thirty minutes

and i scream for the phone

just to ring once so i know you're there

don't abandon me

as i abandon my body

and there's still hope

to keep things in time

you will be okay

and what i say doesn't get through

and I place my faith in you

That you will put me to rest

in between trust and emptiness

And you ask me to keep going

I trust that you'll understand

When all is said and done

it's worth it to let go