Cheescakey HELL
Wow, so i ate some cheesecake right... now i feel like straight up ASS! and fat to boot, man that sucks. and i have a mohawk right so that pretty much blows too. School is dicking me around and i sleep all day which means that i miss out on good things like lunch with monge. ugh, today is just a shitty day. I could bitch forever about what is wrong and what i would like to change but i think i am going to try and focus on the positive. On the bright side i get paid tomorrow, even though none of my money ever goes to my pocket at least i'm in slightly less debt :-/ There is a party tonight that aj wants to go to and also kelle says she may be down to chill, if not i have plans on LOCK which is always a plus. I am having alcohol BROUGHT to me lol that's awesome. Chino's is coming up, this kind of worries me because i am pretty much dying for the 4th to come because it seems like the only thing fun to do now that i have to work the whole fucking weekend... mon tues off, what a joke. I'm really looking forward to becoming a super hardass again because i'm going to start playing paintball YES! I'm going to crack down on the final phase of my diet which is nice because i will hopefully get results, but then again it sucks because i'm going to be eating on a schedule and no food will be taken in purely for enjoyment. I finally saw HARRY POTTER even though all of you fuckers punked out and saw it without even inviting me, yeah i am still a little bit bitter even though i saw it and it was great. i am finding pleasures in the simple things in life again... like going to the movies. I think it's because i have been going so hard for so long that boring simple relaxed things like that are just right for me. I'm either like an un-experienced young kid or an overworked old man... i think it is the old man one though. So, if anyone's down for a calm night of just kickin' back and hanging out or even going to / watching movies you know who to call... if not you all know i'm down to party hard too, i'm just that well balanced and overall skilled. I miss my old schedule, the good one with the good days off. I mainly miss being able to go lift with my brother, we have gotten so tight now that he moves out which is kind of weird. i think we both just needed our space, but i really do like the way we're super tight now. I miss my friends, my guy friends. No offense to you girls but i really do just miss the way i could be doing nothing with my guy friends and still have the times of our lives. Hurting eachother, teasing eachother, hurting and teasing others, throwing shit at people, at eachother, playing sex in the car with girls, breaking into people's houses, skinny dipping in their pools, i miss mike, i miss aj, i miss jordan, i miss monge, i miss schmoop, i miss john and brian, i miss bun bun, NIGGER ROB, chino, eddo, i miss everyone, even the people i don't hang out with anymore or even talk to or even like... i miss the times i had with them. Things are not going to be the same soon, before you know it years will have gone by. It's as soon as things get serious is when time starts to just get away from you. This last year has gone by in just weeks i swear. There are a few memories but no feelings, i don't even feel the wear of a year on my body, it's all mental. Maybe i just don't see it. From now on i am going to live my life to the FULLEST, i will only sleep when i can not stay awake, only go down when i drop. live life to the fullest. i'll sleep when i die. be a oart of my life which is now going to be wonderful and call me. much love to all of you fools.