tell me how lucky I am
so today, I realized that I should stop brooding about things, because in all honesty, my problems don't matter so much. all there really is for me to do is to try and be there for myself and others, and hopefully people will return the favor, of course I'm not changing who I am, just fine tuning my perspective on a few things. one of my friends was about to commit suicide tonight, and I talked them out of it, and they told me that they think God spoke through me. and I cried because of all the time I wasted on such trivial things. things that really aren't going to matter. and, well, you know what, I can't make him love me back, and I can't hate myself for not being perfect. because I'm worth something to someone, and if saving my friends life is the only thing I'll ever have to be proud of, then so be it, because that gives me something to hold on to. of course I'd still love for things to go my way with a few things, but if they don't work out in my favor, then I'll be uspet, obviously, but who's to say that what I think I want is what will really make me happy? I'm going to go to sleep, and for the first time in as long as I can remember, I can't wait to wake up.
"Whatever it is, thats it. Because what's in the maker's eyes is never translated as the outer perspective. And people dont want to hear it. The real meaning. I wanted to live as a philosopher, as a riddler, make a statement that could give people a different state of mind, a different perspective of what is. Because what was is obvious, and plainly, I dont have the right to say what should be now, what should have happened and what should be done. I dont have the right to say any of that."
"Whatever it is, thats it. Because what's in the maker's eyes is never translated as the outer perspective. And people dont want to hear it. The real meaning. I wanted to live as a philosopher, as a riddler, make a statement that could give people a different state of mind, a different perspective of what is. Because what was is obvious, and plainly, I dont have the right to say what should be now, what should have happened and what should be done. I dont have the right to say any of that."