FAIL
we failed. :D and i cant be any happier.
okay, we learned about our self control.
we do not have any
and we're absolutely okay with that.
its takes time to have complete control over yourself.
so dont worry if you're confused with yourself. emotionally imbalanced, or physically dependent to something. it does not mean you're weak.
its part of growing up.
maybe we took the wrong aproach, giving it up all at once.
we're taking it slow now.
baby steps.
each week we sacrifice something different.
no media one week. no mcr (that was a disaster) another. completely vegan for seven days. things like that.
it'll take a while. and some self control. more than we had last week.
right now im so indescribably happy because Gerard's singing in my ear so loudly. and its beautiful like i could never remember. and Ray's perfect and im imagining Frank. and he's beautiful passionate. and Mikey's just so fucking chill and Bob's lost in his own world much like me right now. alone. earphones.
and they're hugging me, giving me all sorts of bubbly feelings.
i feel like im meeting with a good friend FINALLY after so long.
:)
i really missed them. and i really appreciate what they are to me, even more can you believe that?!
and im so glad im back. people who can relate.
thank you so much for your support
love.♥♥
okay, we learned about our self control.
we do not have any
and we're absolutely okay with that.
its takes time to have complete control over yourself.
so dont worry if you're confused with yourself. emotionally imbalanced, or physically dependent to something. it does not mean you're weak.
its part of growing up.
maybe we took the wrong aproach, giving it up all at once.
we're taking it slow now.
baby steps.
each week we sacrifice something different.
no media one week. no mcr (that was a disaster) another. completely vegan for seven days. things like that.
it'll take a while. and some self control. more than we had last week.
right now im so indescribably happy because Gerard's singing in my ear so loudly. and its beautiful like i could never remember. and Ray's perfect and im imagining Frank. and he's beautiful passionate. and Mikey's just so fucking chill and Bob's lost in his own world much like me right now. alone. earphones.
and they're hugging me, giving me all sorts of bubbly feelings.
i feel like im meeting with a good friend FINALLY after so long.
:)
i really missed them. and i really appreciate what they are to me, even more can you believe that?!
and im so glad im back. people who can relate.
thank you so much for your support
love.♥♥