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[ohtobloom]

she is flawless
in her mistakes
she is forgiven
she left you
feeling confused
she is selfish
fickle
unstable

so what is it

her fair skin?
was it soft under your fingers?
her shape...was it your favorite?
her scent?
the things she said, the way she laughed?

what is it
that leaves you
unable to shake her

there are many of her
in different forms
different names and faces
hair shades
body types

and i just can't figure it out
whether its
obsession, perfection, desperation
that infamous pedestal
the ideal of perfection
because beauty is distracting
and people live to connect
with beauty

i will never be that.