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Jan 03, 2011 10:39

Tell the truth, get in shit.
Outright lie, get in shit.
Agree with everything she said, get in shit.
Argue her point and stand up for myself, get in shit.
Say nothing, get in shit.

now a days, its a new person.
Tell the truth, he thinks i hate him.
Tell an outright lie, he thinks i hate him.
Argue with his position, he thinks i hate him.
Agree with his position, he REALLY thinks i hate him.
freak out on him for always thinking that a one word answer means "youre a terrible person and youre bothering me", he thinks i hate him.

There's no winning this. He started a conversation on some chick i dont even know. I had no observations, no opinions, no nothing. But based on previous experience, saying nothing would translate to "you're bothering me. piss off." and I would get dismissed. So I do a simple "i see" to acknowledge that im paying attention. And I get dismissed because apparently hes bothering me and I don't want to talk.

Half the time I don't even know I'm saying it, really. I had no idea that my simple words had such an elaborate meaning.

Call him on it, spend a good deal of time arguing that hes being an over sensitive prick, and I'm STILL the bad guy here.
How? I don't know anymore.

I don't understand.
What is it you people WANT from me?
I try to be what you want me to be. I don't have anything that I can call 'me' so I tailor myself to the desires of others. But when you change what you want every other sentence and never actually TELL me how you expect me to reply or act, how am I supposed to know?!?!
And seriously. When I ask where I fucked up, I'm looking for a fucking reply, not "its nothing. drop it."
That is a wife game.
The husband fucks up. the wife is mad. The husband follows her around all day asking "what did i do? whats wrong?" and she constantly replies "its nothing". When he finally gives up and accepts that its 'nothing', he gets in even MORE shit for not knowing she was upset and fixing his attitude to please her.
it's a trap game.

news flash!
I'M A WOMAN. I KNOW THIS GAME VERY VERY WELL.
thus you CANNOT play it on me.
I'M NOT STUPID.

You tell me it's nothing, i KNOW it's something and i KNOW that you wont tell me what I need to fix because youre an asshole that way and you seem to love it when im mad at you so that you have a validation on your 'the universe hates me and I would be better off dead' theory.

dickwad.

CHRSIT.
I was in a good mood before you started this bullshit again.

And guess what? just because I ranted about it, obviously you're a terrible person and you should just leave! Right? that's was the whole point of this entire bullshit. thank you so much for clarifying, since I never really understand the words that come out of my own mouth.

Fucking hell.
It's elementary all over again.
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