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oooo work sucks. just got home from banana republic. yes, it is almost 2am. haha. crazy.
almost done with christmas shopping, almost. i wrapped all the gifts sooooo beautifully. i'm so proud of myself. i'm a big girl now.
i gave steve his gift early - we went riding on sunday. it was great. i can't tell you how happy i am to have a boyfriend who does shit like that. he doesn't mind going places (well except to malls... ha). it's awesome. but i regret giving it to him because i worked really hard on the whole way to package the gift and now it's just sitting on my dad's bedroom floor. all alone. i get really dorky when it comes to people i care about. i go all out. to see steve happy w/ his gift is just awesome for me.
it sucks, my time is so limited. i have a great guy, who i love spending all my time with, but it's so hard to get that free time. i know it'll ease up pretty soon, after the holidays are over... but i hope he understands.
i talked to ex-boyfriend steve like last night or two nights ago. him and kelly are in love. hehe. i talked to him about me and steve and he's psyched that i finally found someone who treats me right. remember how i said i didn't think i went through the whole "being upset that we broke up" thing? Well, i did. after talking with him, i realized how awful it would have been to stay together. i think it was a whole security issue. i felt like if i didn't have him, i'd have no one. but that's not true - i proved it to be not true. i got steve now and honestly, i couldn't have asked for anyone more perfect. ya - perfect is a pretty tough word... no one is PERFECT but let's use MY definition of perfect.
i feel like steve is my sanity. he's a vacation from everything else i'm dealing with. when i'm with him, i just feel happy. i feel comfortable. i love just laying next to him, i love his kisses, i love doing absolutely nothing with him. i used to always date a guy and constantly seek for something better - isn't that awful? but it's true. it's because i'd date people who weren't right for me, they were always missing things that i felt were important in a guy. i never tried to change them, i'd just try and ignore the fact that they weren't what i wanted. steve is completely different. i have no interest in anyone, i couldn't even imagine someone who would come close to steve. i don't know... maybe i'm getting too mushy here. and i know that when (and he probably will) he reads this... he'll be all "woah... this girl is insane". whatever, it's my fuckin' journal bitches!!! hah. you hear that honey? you're the best. :) and i wouldn't trade what i've got, not for anything, not for anything at all.
almost done with christmas shopping, almost. i wrapped all the gifts sooooo beautifully. i'm so proud of myself. i'm a big girl now.
i gave steve his gift early - we went riding on sunday. it was great. i can't tell you how happy i am to have a boyfriend who does shit like that. he doesn't mind going places (well except to malls... ha). it's awesome. but i regret giving it to him because i worked really hard on the whole way to package the gift and now it's just sitting on my dad's bedroom floor. all alone. i get really dorky when it comes to people i care about. i go all out. to see steve happy w/ his gift is just awesome for me.
it sucks, my time is so limited. i have a great guy, who i love spending all my time with, but it's so hard to get that free time. i know it'll ease up pretty soon, after the holidays are over... but i hope he understands.
i talked to ex-boyfriend steve like last night or two nights ago. him and kelly are in love. hehe. i talked to him about me and steve and he's psyched that i finally found someone who treats me right. remember how i said i didn't think i went through the whole "being upset that we broke up" thing? Well, i did. after talking with him, i realized how awful it would have been to stay together. i think it was a whole security issue. i felt like if i didn't have him, i'd have no one. but that's not true - i proved it to be not true. i got steve now and honestly, i couldn't have asked for anyone more perfect. ya - perfect is a pretty tough word... no one is PERFECT but let's use MY definition of perfect.
i feel like steve is my sanity. he's a vacation from everything else i'm dealing with. when i'm with him, i just feel happy. i feel comfortable. i love just laying next to him, i love his kisses, i love doing absolutely nothing with him. i used to always date a guy and constantly seek for something better - isn't that awful? but it's true. it's because i'd date people who weren't right for me, they were always missing things that i felt were important in a guy. i never tried to change them, i'd just try and ignore the fact that they weren't what i wanted. steve is completely different. i have no interest in anyone, i couldn't even imagine someone who would come close to steve. i don't know... maybe i'm getting too mushy here. and i know that when (and he probably will) he reads this... he'll be all "woah... this girl is insane". whatever, it's my fuckin' journal bitches!!! hah. you hear that honey? you're the best. :) and i wouldn't trade what i've got, not for anything, not for anything at all.