Finally writing in this.
Well, Im finally writing in this.
Things have been amazing but then other things have been tough.
I have an amazing boyfriend who does anything and everything for me
but sometimes I blow upon the slightest thing. I still feel a lone sometimes
probaby because he does go to collegein pennsylvania and sometimes i dont see him but ugh idk. Our 3 month is this tuesday which im excitied for. Believe or not this has been my longest and first real real real relationship. I do really love him. Sometimes i jjust get overwhelmed and dont know what to do. But this past weekend it was soo cute he came out and we went to babies r us (cause i had to do a pregancy project for health) and like we went to baby registery and go to scan whatever we wanted for our "baby" which equalled 215 items hahahah it was soo cute. Haha usually when he comes out we lay with each other for hours which i love so much. I love being held and cared for its the best feeling in the world.
Also on tuesday night its the victoria secret fashion which i am so excitied for. You may laugh,but one of my dreams is to be a victorias secret model everysince 4th grade id watch the fashion show and like walk around my living rooom in a bra and panties and high heels and then at the end of a walk id place a mirror so i could pose in front of it. I know my height is what could make or break me. But recentely there has been a lot of successful 5'7 models. Like Lydia Hearst, that Presely girl, Kate Moss, and many others. Im veryyy excitied to graduate in a few months and start my life.
I need to stop some of the things ive been doing lately, Its really bad and at first i thought it was going to bring me happiness but in reality it made me weak and depressed. This week has been kinda distrubing people in general are so sick and cruel its disgusting.
Ive been going out to clubs more than usual like i did in the summer, I love it. Dancing with friends getting drunk running around the citty at 4 in the morning. Its just realy fun.
Haha and I went to see Peaches play last last friday with Kristen, Christina, Catherine and Matt. Hahah omg like i was pretty depressed that whole day and i was like MAN I JUSST WANT TO DRINK AND RELAX so i went into this deli on spring st and bough 4 sparks (energy drink/8% alcohol) andbelieve me 2 of those things and your like going crazy. Anyway matt and i had them and then we had to met up with Kristin and them again so i thought id buy 2 more for them. So we met up with themmm and then some guy saw we were drinking sparks so like he went into a grocery store and bough us more and then at irving i got a over 21 sticker with my wonderful ID haha and boughtmore and more drinks and barely remember the night it was fun and funny tho.
I have so much to say but i bet no one read this alll so ill just stop here at this.
By the way i slept from 5:00 pm to 8:30 am thi morning thats 15 and a 1/2 hours def needed it and matts coming over today yay! <3
Things have been amazing but then other things have been tough.
I have an amazing boyfriend who does anything and everything for me
but sometimes I blow upon the slightest thing. I still feel a lone sometimes
probaby because he does go to collegein pennsylvania and sometimes i dont see him but ugh idk. Our 3 month is this tuesday which im excitied for. Believe or not this has been my longest and first real real real relationship. I do really love him. Sometimes i jjust get overwhelmed and dont know what to do. But this past weekend it was soo cute he came out and we went to babies r us (cause i had to do a pregancy project for health) and like we went to baby registery and go to scan whatever we wanted for our "baby" which equalled 215 items hahahah it was soo cute. Haha usually when he comes out we lay with each other for hours which i love so much. I love being held and cared for its the best feeling in the world.
Also on tuesday night its the victoria secret fashion which i am so excitied for. You may laugh,but one of my dreams is to be a victorias secret model everysince 4th grade id watch the fashion show and like walk around my living rooom in a bra and panties and high heels and then at the end of a walk id place a mirror so i could pose in front of it. I know my height is what could make or break me. But recentely there has been a lot of successful 5'7 models. Like Lydia Hearst, that Presely girl, Kate Moss, and many others. Im veryyy excitied to graduate in a few months and start my life.
I need to stop some of the things ive been doing lately, Its really bad and at first i thought it was going to bring me happiness but in reality it made me weak and depressed. This week has been kinda distrubing people in general are so sick and cruel its disgusting.
Ive been going out to clubs more than usual like i did in the summer, I love it. Dancing with friends getting drunk running around the citty at 4 in the morning. Its just realy fun.
Haha and I went to see Peaches play last last friday with Kristen, Christina, Catherine and Matt. Hahah omg like i was pretty depressed that whole day and i was like MAN I JUSST WANT TO DRINK AND RELAX so i went into this deli on spring st and bough 4 sparks (energy drink/8% alcohol) andbelieve me 2 of those things and your like going crazy. Anyway matt and i had them and then we had to met up with Kristin and them again so i thought id buy 2 more for them. So we met up with themmm and then some guy saw we were drinking sparks so like he went into a grocery store and bough us more and then at irving i got a over 21 sticker with my wonderful ID haha and boughtmore and more drinks and barely remember the night it was fun and funny tho.
I have so much to say but i bet no one read this alll so ill just stop here at this.
By the way i slept from 5:00 pm to 8:30 am thi morning thats 15 and a 1/2 hours def needed it and matts coming over today yay! <3