i've been sitting here, trying to figure myself out lately.

[ohsopseudo]

i've become this person i never thought i was or could be. emotionally cumbersome, dancing between lovers. accepting excuses as appropriate answers. wallowing in the idea of being captivated by another permanantly, for the sake of momentary happiness. ive never cared about these things before. in a months time when this is all said and done, i wont then either. ill forget. just as i have forgotten the first time we've met. i still dont know what i want out of this. with that being said, why am i so affected.

we are marionettes.