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i'm sayiing my last good byes to my dad, stepmom, brothers and sister tomorrow morning. it's so sadddddd.
i hugged my dad for awhile last nite and he started to cry....and kept telling me that he can't believe i'm actually leaving now.
i am trying hard not to cry right now. i'm kinda just tryiing to numb the fact that i'm moving 3000 miles away from my comfort zone....my home, my family, my friends, my best friend. it's scary...but i know i'm doing the right thing.
also, everyone who knows me, says i'm never going to come back to the east coast after living in CA. for a long while, i was like....maybe they're right....maybe i won't come back. then i look at my family and i realize that i'm going to school for chinese medicine in part, because of them....to help them. what would i be if i just moved away from them forever without helping to heal them?? they are such a large part of why i'm doing what i'm doing...because i wanted to help them with life and to live better.
so, i don't know what i'm goign to do without my family out there. i'm such a big family person...
i knwo i'll miss them...and i can't pretend to know the future....where i'm going, where i'm staying. but i do know this...i want my family around me always....when i get married, have my kids, etc. i want them at arm's length, because sharing my life with them is so important to me. and vice versa.
oy. not gonna cry. not gonna cry.
i hugged my dad for awhile last nite and he started to cry....and kept telling me that he can't believe i'm actually leaving now.
i am trying hard not to cry right now. i'm kinda just tryiing to numb the fact that i'm moving 3000 miles away from my comfort zone....my home, my family, my friends, my best friend. it's scary...but i know i'm doing the right thing.
also, everyone who knows me, says i'm never going to come back to the east coast after living in CA. for a long while, i was like....maybe they're right....maybe i won't come back. then i look at my family and i realize that i'm going to school for chinese medicine in part, because of them....to help them. what would i be if i just moved away from them forever without helping to heal them?? they are such a large part of why i'm doing what i'm doing...because i wanted to help them with life and to live better.
so, i don't know what i'm goign to do without my family out there. i'm such a big family person...
i knwo i'll miss them...and i can't pretend to know the future....where i'm going, where i'm staying. but i do know this...i want my family around me always....when i get married, have my kids, etc. i want them at arm's length, because sharing my life with them is so important to me. and vice versa.
oy. not gonna cry. not gonna cry.