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She thinks it's o.k to just ask Jesse out to dinner, to just get her own room, to give a small amount to miss Lozano, and keep on being invovled in Jesse life's. Hell they all do.
She is cool with Ms. Lozano, the kids follow her everwhere.
And somehow I'm being the insecure paranoid one. Somehow I'm the bad guy.
No one sees what shes trying to do apparently, but I do, I'll be damned if they think I'm going to just sit back and take this.
Ms. Lozano...so much for her being on my side, all of a sudden Sabi is somehow a part of the family. I'm sure she can't wait until I'm completly out of the picture.
I told her last night to never again put me in the position where I had to say no to Jesse. I told her point blank, I prefer them not go any where alone together, especially some dinner. What did she do! She yelled and got pissed, and pretty much told me to back off.
I don't exactly find it unreasonable to ask that my boyfriend and his ex whom he cheated on me with not go any where together, but apparently it is. Apparently I'm wrong for feeling the way I do. Talk about feeling bad, everyone keeps asking why I'm still putting up with this? Why I'm still being a part of some akward little threesome relationship? Why am I doing this? Staying up all night crying myself to sleep can not be good for me. Coming to work looking like crap can not be good for my image. All of this for what? I already know how this ends. She's got me either way, why am I still beating a horse that's already dead?
The answer is I don't know.
I just don't know when to give up. I don't want to. 5 years...5 years that I don't want to let go of. It hurts to think I was wrong about him. That all this time was for what? Nothing. This is so gay. All of it just reeks of gaydom.
Sabi you lying piece of Sh** one day you'll get what's coming to you. I just hope I'm there to see it.
And you know what? You too Jesse.
I'm tired of all this bullshit. I've done so much for him and for what? Oh I like her...Oh I care about her... you should feel sorry for her Michelle she has no where to live. Boo-hoo, boo-hoo.
Who put her in this position in the first place? She did. If I can pick myself up and find my own apt. Then so can she. IF FUCKING JENNIFER CAN FIND HER OWN PLACE SO CAN SHE!
So all this sounds like to me is just excuses. And if anyone thinks I'm going to just welcome her with open arms...well, allow me to inform you that as far as I'm concerned she can take her pity story and go rot in the most dirtiest streets of Houston, or better yet! Go back to Arizona and stay the hell away from me.
I'll remain calm at Jesse's house for the sake of his mother. But I'll be damned if you want me to stay calm elsewhere anymore. It's time she left...or else me.
She is cool with Ms. Lozano, the kids follow her everwhere.
And somehow I'm being the insecure paranoid one. Somehow I'm the bad guy.
No one sees what shes trying to do apparently, but I do, I'll be damned if they think I'm going to just sit back and take this.
Ms. Lozano...so much for her being on my side, all of a sudden Sabi is somehow a part of the family. I'm sure she can't wait until I'm completly out of the picture.
I told her last night to never again put me in the position where I had to say no to Jesse. I told her point blank, I prefer them not go any where alone together, especially some dinner. What did she do! She yelled and got pissed, and pretty much told me to back off.
I don't exactly find it unreasonable to ask that my boyfriend and his ex whom he cheated on me with not go any where together, but apparently it is. Apparently I'm wrong for feeling the way I do. Talk about feeling bad, everyone keeps asking why I'm still putting up with this? Why I'm still being a part of some akward little threesome relationship? Why am I doing this? Staying up all night crying myself to sleep can not be good for me. Coming to work looking like crap can not be good for my image. All of this for what? I already know how this ends. She's got me either way, why am I still beating a horse that's already dead?
The answer is I don't know.
I just don't know when to give up. I don't want to. 5 years...5 years that I don't want to let go of. It hurts to think I was wrong about him. That all this time was for what? Nothing. This is so gay. All of it just reeks of gaydom.
Sabi you lying piece of Sh** one day you'll get what's coming to you. I just hope I'm there to see it.
And you know what? You too Jesse.
I'm tired of all this bullshit. I've done so much for him and for what? Oh I like her...Oh I care about her... you should feel sorry for her Michelle she has no where to live. Boo-hoo, boo-hoo.
Who put her in this position in the first place? She did. If I can pick myself up and find my own apt. Then so can she. IF FUCKING JENNIFER CAN FIND HER OWN PLACE SO CAN SHE!
So all this sounds like to me is just excuses. And if anyone thinks I'm going to just welcome her with open arms...well, allow me to inform you that as far as I'm concerned she can take her pity story and go rot in the most dirtiest streets of Houston, or better yet! Go back to Arizona and stay the hell away from me.
I'll remain calm at Jesse's house for the sake of his mother. But I'll be damned if you want me to stay calm elsewhere anymore. It's time she left...or else me.