xXx i LoVe YoU xXx
Somewhere between the *procrastination* and the homework.. and the incessant IMs and the friendships and the calls to each other complaining about CrUsHeS and crEatUreS they call boys.. Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends and the "I miss you's", the "I love you's" and the "What are we doing tonight's?" And somewhere between all of the changing and growing... somewhere between the classes and the skipping classes...and the StUdYiNg for teStS...And the PRETENDING to "StUdY" for TeStS... And the downright NOT StUdYiNg for TeStS... I forgot--I forgot what ScHooL was all about. Somewhere between all the classes, starbucks coffee and frappucinos, and McDonald's hot fudge sundaes.... Making plans then breaking plans... Appearing, Disappearing, then reappearing... I forgot--I forgot what it was like to cry. I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy... And that pretending to be SmArT doesn't make you smart .. I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the FUTURE... I forgot that you can't control falling in LoVe.. And that you can't make yourself fall in *LoVe* .... I learned that I can LOVE... I learned that it's okay to MEsS UP.... And it's okay to ask for HELP!!!.. And it's okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okay to cOmPLaiN and wHINe to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have and the things that you look for are right in front of you. I learned that the greatest thing about HiGh ScHOoL isn't about the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the Hookups ... It's the *FrIeNdShIpS*, which means taking chances. I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about... I learned that TIME and LOVE can heal all things... I learned that just when you think it can't get worse - it does! ... but with the love and support of friends - you survive... I've learned that when you start feeling BaD about L O S I N G touch and about those that you've lost,they too are feeling the same way.... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better! But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both old and new..... are the most important people to me in the world AND.......without them, I wouldn't be who I am today..... So this is a THANK YOU to all of my friends... For always being there. And even if we're not on good terms or we have lost touch... I will always have an unconditional love for you.. ~Always and forever ~
*cayce*
*cayce*