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[ohsogangstuhh]

I wish I had the capacity to trust easier. I hope I get it back soon. I was fine until like a year or two ago.. First we moved, so at school I distanced myself from everybody.. I didn't want to make friends or meet new people at all. I hated my parents for the longest time. Then I tried moving in with my Dad, realized that he wasn't who I thought he was. That was the hardest summer ever. Then I came back to Bremerton, where everybody was all "oh, yay, you're back!" for about a week, but I had been gone for a year sooo.. the number of friendships that stayed the same? Zero. Lost trust there. You think people care, but they don't. Then everything happened with another situation, made it harder to trust anybody. Not only hard to trust, but hard to LET myself trust, because it hurts so bad when someone you trusted let you down, you never wanna get that close to anybody ever ever ever again. That vulnerability, it's scary.
So. This is going to be me making an effort to stop being a dumb fuck and get some real friends again. It's my fault that I don't have any close ones in the first place. Don't let me down?

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(ts-nm)n. pl. tsunamis A very large ocean wave caused by an underwater earthquake or volcanic eruption.you are an introverted quiet type who does not enjoy social situations or people in general. you keep your head in emergencies and you can depend on yourself for love and companionship. fuck those annoying earthlings.

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