Wishing I was dead
I am constantly putting myself into situations that turn to shit. I am only interested in men that are either total pieces of shit or are fucking involved with someone else. I set myself up to be hurt knowing what's going to happen but denying the reality of the situation. I have no on to talk to because I isolate myself from anyone that actually shows genuine care for me.
I am sorry to say it but I am just nothing. I don't know who I am or what I want, I treat people like shit and then wonder why they don't like me anymore. I wish to a god I don't believe in that I had never been born. I think of all the horrible things I've done, all the disgusting people I've fucked and I know that it's an endless cycle of meaningless shit and I am the one perpetuating my own misery.
I am sorry to say it but I am just nothing. I don't know who I am or what I want, I treat people like shit and then wonder why they don't like me anymore. I wish to a god I don't believe in that I had never been born. I think of all the horrible things I've done, all the disgusting people I've fucked and I know that it's an endless cycle of meaningless shit and I am the one perpetuating my own misery.