Jun 08, 2005 22:39
This week has been hell. Yesterday from 5-9 stayed up at the funeral home for Marcus. Last nite i freaked. I didn't even make it up the steps without balling. Thank god my friend Anthony Francis came and got me. He had to force me to go up to Marcus and talk and hold his hand. It was probably the hardest thing i've ever had to do. Thank you Francis. After that went to a kid Mike Dryzwecki's house and hung out with all Mark's friends. That was kinda fun. Got my mind off things and yet i was still with the people who loved Mark the most. Today was at the Funeral home from 11-9:30. I talked to Mark's mom and step-mom and dad today. His stepmom Karen told me that quote "Mark always thought you were so hott, and you are. Your beautiful. Mark liked you so much, and he always talked about you.". Mark's mother said quote "Mark always talked about how much he loved you. He told me how he couldn't believe that he had such a babe for a best friend. Thank god your here, Mark loves you" and Mark's hockey coach said quote "Mark always talked so highly of you. You had to be one of his favorite people. He liked you a lot"> Aww I love you tooo Marcus! Thanks for all the great compliments. You were my baby. It was good to see all mark's best friends. Like my old buddy Bart, and Steve, and Larenz, and Matt, and boyce. And most of all Charlie(Chuck). I missed that boy. I am doing better with the whole situation now. I actually ate a couple pickles today! Tomorrow is the actual funeral though. And i dont know how i am going to hold up through that. Its good that all my friends will be there to help me out. I am still hoping that this will all turn out to be a bad dream, but yet when i pinch myself this situation is still here. I can't Believe he's gone. God i will miss him.
**Marcus,
I hope you like the page i made you with the pic of me, and me n you, and you n chuck, and me n jess. I'll always remember all the pics we wasted of me n you kissing. I love you Baby. Oh and by the way, you told your whole hockey team that we dated...Lol I love yoU! I'll see you in the morning, for our final goodbye. This is so hard, bein here without you Marcus. Hope heaven's treatin you good. I love you SO much.
**Linds