pass me
i'm feeling abit like this little monster at the moment.Abit lost.Despite having some shitty uni paper work looming over my head.... i have finished uni if i have passed.If i do pass. where to from here?...do i even want to be a teacher? or maybe i'm having an existensial crisis.I have dodged working fulltime for so long.i know that and thats why i did a course that could get me a job even though i adore the arts and will continue with that.At the end of the day i don't really want to make commercially viable artwork.So i have to make money somewhere else.not shitty money.okay money that will allow me to travel,eat well and one day own my own place....
It's always about giving up this for that. Loving this and losing that.
I always have crap days when i hear from my ex best friend.She is hopping on a plane to europe in September (maybe forever) and i know i should feel relieved but i don't.