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sometimes i get these reality checks and i wonder if i should be treated better than i am. i will get nowhere in life thanking people for simply putting up with me, especially when they claim to love me. i need a little of that "they're lucky to be with me" attitude. not in an overly cocky, pretencious way, but in a way that shows I am sure of myself. often times i'm sure i'm sure of myself, but every once in a while i realize that i can be this soft spoken vulnerable little puppy that lets people walk all over her and that pisses me off. i need to just start saying what comes to mind, and doing the first things that pop into my head instead of making everything so strategic all the time. i'm sure they hate eachother for a reason..maybe this is the lesson I am/ will learn from it. I need to be an ever stronger person. not in a proud way, but in a confident way.