you are my sunshine, my only sunshine..
it's eight thirty in the morning. i just got home. i'm wearing the same clothes that i wore last night/slept in, my hair is serving as razors covering my eyes, and i'm still quite dizzy..something which i've never experienced before, but sincerely better than being hung over. point is..what better time for a little LJ updateage?
so i got my reality pinch that i asked for..i think i could feel it comming all along, but once i wrote that, it was like i forced someones hand to give me the tiniest, most forceful pinch they could, and let me just say mother fucker, it hurt like a bitch. In retrospect, i think i handled myself exceptionally well, and now things are working beautifully again for the most part. today = a quarter of a year. haha, woo!
this year is going really well..school really isn't a bother at all. my schedule is perfectly set up so i have a lax period before and after every bothersome (academic) one. that is really nice, i just wish art wasn't so discouraging. in my AP studio course i feel like such a shmuck, not only because i've never taken drawing and painting 2 and am still in the process of learning all the techniques and such that the other kids learned a year ago, but i really just feel like i'm lacking in talent, like i'm stuck in a rut. my art really hasn't grown and progressed like it should have, but i suppose that is because i sort of neglected it. i'm just worried that i've pushed myself to the limit, and this is the full extent of my innate ability, and that would be heart breaking so i'm just going to keep working on it.
wow i wish i didn't have to babysit those little demons in an hour. i really need sleep. goodnight/morning.
so i got my reality pinch that i asked for..i think i could feel it comming all along, but once i wrote that, it was like i forced someones hand to give me the tiniest, most forceful pinch they could, and let me just say mother fucker, it hurt like a bitch. In retrospect, i think i handled myself exceptionally well, and now things are working beautifully again for the most part. today = a quarter of a year. haha, woo!
this year is going really well..school really isn't a bother at all. my schedule is perfectly set up so i have a lax period before and after every bothersome (academic) one. that is really nice, i just wish art wasn't so discouraging. in my AP studio course i feel like such a shmuck, not only because i've never taken drawing and painting 2 and am still in the process of learning all the techniques and such that the other kids learned a year ago, but i really just feel like i'm lacking in talent, like i'm stuck in a rut. my art really hasn't grown and progressed like it should have, but i suppose that is because i sort of neglected it. i'm just worried that i've pushed myself to the limit, and this is the full extent of my innate ability, and that would be heart breaking so i'm just going to keep working on it.
wow i wish i didn't have to babysit those little demons in an hour. i really need sleep. goodnight/morning.