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i am getting kind of tired of working the 6am-11am shift at banana. if that was what i worked every day, i don't think i'd mind because i would always go to bed early. but since i only do it once a week, i can't just fall asleep by 9pm to get enough sleep to be up by 5am. ugh i just want a real job with real money and real hours.
i've been giving a lot of thought to my future. right now, i'm really not sure where i want to go... i'm going to apply to a few D.O. programs, but i really don't expect to get in. which sucks. i'm not even going to waste my time with M.D. plus i don't really want to be in an environment where it's perfectly acceptable for someone to put their students down, make them work 24 hours a day, and where giving up your entire life outside of med school is the norm. i know some may think, "but that's the point. you work your ass off to get to your ultimate goal. once you finish, you're done and you've proven something." but for me, i think my qualms with medical school go deeper than my hatred for condescending tones and no sleep. i've grown up around doctors. and no matter how much money they have, they get bored with the job and are (in some cases) pretty unhappy. i want to be able to enjoy my job and feel like i'm getting some benefit (aside from the obvious monetary reasons) from what i do. so lately, i've been thinking about naturopathic medicine. it really isn't all quackery and granola nonsense. the more i read about it, the more convinced i become that it would be something i could make a career out of.
i just worry that i won't be respected. i would hate to have people think of me as some health nut who paid money to make other people into health nuts. naturopathic medicine intrigues me because the docs take the same classes as other med students, but they also incorporate nutrition, exercise, meditation, and natural remedies into their healing. i could see myself opening a wellness center with other like-minded people. a place that incorporates a doctor's visit with yoga, nutrition and cooking classes, and counseling. i would love to help people lead healthier lives; not just physically but mentally and spiritually. but i don't know if there is a market out there... would i have to move to like a granola epicenter?
i just worry about investing time and money into something that won't give me the result i want. and then there's always grad school... which is a viable option and not bad, but who knows if that is what i want to do. i have learned to love the lab. that's where i spend a good chunk of my time. but could i make a career out of it? i am not sure. i need some guidance here! haha oh wouldn't it be so nice if someone could just take you by the hand and lead you down the path you're meant to take?
well, aside from life decisions... fourth of july was slightly disappointing. travis and i went into the city to meet up with friends, but no one really knew what to do. we wandered from one end to the other. rittenhouse to broad and walnut to chinatown for bubble tea to society hill for drinks to south street back up to suburban. heather invited us to her apartment in university city, but jimmy and christine didn't want to take a cab (why? i don't know. $3 was too expensive??). and as soon as it started to drizzle everyone took off. travis and i eventually wandered to jimmy's new place. i was ready to pack it in and catch the train, but heather tempted me with SoCo and i agreed to walk up to the art museum for fireworks. but after walking 10 or so blocks in soaking wet leather loafers, i gave up. plus i wasn't really sure if the fireworks were going to be enjoyable in the rain. so we just came home and finished out the night on the couch.
i don't want to work 2 jobs tomorrow. i just want to hang out with travis and do something not stressful and fun! it looks like it's about time for me to take a nap...
i've been giving a lot of thought to my future. right now, i'm really not sure where i want to go... i'm going to apply to a few D.O. programs, but i really don't expect to get in. which sucks. i'm not even going to waste my time with M.D. plus i don't really want to be in an environment where it's perfectly acceptable for someone to put their students down, make them work 24 hours a day, and where giving up your entire life outside of med school is the norm. i know some may think, "but that's the point. you work your ass off to get to your ultimate goal. once you finish, you're done and you've proven something." but for me, i think my qualms with medical school go deeper than my hatred for condescending tones and no sleep. i've grown up around doctors. and no matter how much money they have, they get bored with the job and are (in some cases) pretty unhappy. i want to be able to enjoy my job and feel like i'm getting some benefit (aside from the obvious monetary reasons) from what i do. so lately, i've been thinking about naturopathic medicine. it really isn't all quackery and granola nonsense. the more i read about it, the more convinced i become that it would be something i could make a career out of.
i just worry that i won't be respected. i would hate to have people think of me as some health nut who paid money to make other people into health nuts. naturopathic medicine intrigues me because the docs take the same classes as other med students, but they also incorporate nutrition, exercise, meditation, and natural remedies into their healing. i could see myself opening a wellness center with other like-minded people. a place that incorporates a doctor's visit with yoga, nutrition and cooking classes, and counseling. i would love to help people lead healthier lives; not just physically but mentally and spiritually. but i don't know if there is a market out there... would i have to move to like a granola epicenter?
i just worry about investing time and money into something that won't give me the result i want. and then there's always grad school... which is a viable option and not bad, but who knows if that is what i want to do. i have learned to love the lab. that's where i spend a good chunk of my time. but could i make a career out of it? i am not sure. i need some guidance here! haha oh wouldn't it be so nice if someone could just take you by the hand and lead you down the path you're meant to take?
well, aside from life decisions... fourth of july was slightly disappointing. travis and i went into the city to meet up with friends, but no one really knew what to do. we wandered from one end to the other. rittenhouse to broad and walnut to chinatown for bubble tea to society hill for drinks to south street back up to suburban. heather invited us to her apartment in university city, but jimmy and christine didn't want to take a cab (why? i don't know. $3 was too expensive??). and as soon as it started to drizzle everyone took off. travis and i eventually wandered to jimmy's new place. i was ready to pack it in and catch the train, but heather tempted me with SoCo and i agreed to walk up to the art museum for fireworks. but after walking 10 or so blocks in soaking wet leather loafers, i gave up. plus i wasn't really sure if the fireworks were going to be enjoyable in the rain. so we just came home and finished out the night on the couch.
i don't want to work 2 jobs tomorrow. i just want to hang out with travis and do something not stressful and fun! it looks like it's about time for me to take a nap...