am tired..
Yawn...I should probably be asleep by now but just wanted to really type up a bit about my day today. Today I paid my formal fees and was telling my friend how completely worried I am about formal. I keep on dreading and fearing at the same time that I will some how be under dressed and feel so inferior when compared to the other girls in their designer gowns, expensive shoes and fancy make-up. Then my friend said something real sweet. She said; "Kira you're so naturally beautiful that it doesn't even matter what you wear, you'll still look gorgeous".
I thought that was just the sweestest little thing that I have ever heard. So yes I am trying to believe what my friend said and just accept the fact that formal is going to be a great night, I just need to relax a little and remember that appearances really mean nothing when in comparison to the true beauty that shines from your confident and happy smile.
Tonight was really special as mum and I went out for a late night drive. She said she wanted to take me out to her "special" place. The one in which she goes to in order to think. She told me that whenever she's confused or down, that going there and seeing the beautiful lights of the city always some how makes her feel comforted and happier. I knew exactly what she meant as I gazed upon the beautiful sparkling water and the bright late night city life that looked undisturbed by our watchful gazes. It was really nice just talking with her tonight; I think that is what I have missed. Just the little things. Little things that we would do like that so often without even thinking about how great the moment really is. We've been arguing a lot lately, mainly to do with food and exercise related issues- they always are. I find it so hard to open up to her, to care about her and actually know inside that she loves me. Tonight some how made things seem alright between us. I no longer feel that awkward tension between the two of us. She hugged me tonight and I know that she is my mother and that she loves me so much that she would die for me. It just meant so much to me that the very much special place in the whole world to her, that she wanted to share it- with me.
