Summary: Sam did look for Dean, but then something horrible happened to him that made him stop. After Dean came back he kept it a secret. But that secret is about to be discovered and a whole box of hurt that Sam thought he had buried has come back with a vengeance. Originally I was going to write one long one shot but decided to make it a multichapter. *Warning, SUICIDE, RAPE
Disclaimer: I don’t own Supernatural; it all belongs to the CW and Eric Kripke Warning: Suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt, self-harm, and non-con/rape
Sorry, first time I've put anything on a community, so if it's messed up please just bear with me.