He's forgotten but not yet gone.
I fucking hate my feelings lately. I feel like the most useless, boring, angry person in the world. which is probably a lot closer to accurate than Id like to think.
Im so fucking sick of being lonely. I play it off like I dont want anybody, or like I just love this super-casual free love thing, and ya know, sometimes I can definetly do some casual lovin, but at this point, I just want somebody to give a shit about me. Somebody to hold my hand, that I can share secrets with, who likes me with no makeup on. Someone who appreciates my strengths, or even KNOWS them in the first place.
I really want to fall in love, and I know I wont find it. It never comes unless you dont want it to. Well, for me at least. I dont know one person in the past few MONTHS that I have been involved with who liked me for somehting more than physical or sexual things, at least not to my knowledge. And I realize thats its completely my fault for getting involved with these people, but Im so fucking lonely. Ugh, I disgust myself sometimes.
I want someone I can care about and not feel like I shouldnt, or that they dont care about me. I just want some love in my life, and love isnt something you should want, so I'll just go on feeling this way until I give it up, and then love will find me. That always how it happens.
Im so fucking sick of being lonely. I play it off like I dont want anybody, or like I just love this super-casual free love thing, and ya know, sometimes I can definetly do some casual lovin, but at this point, I just want somebody to give a shit about me. Somebody to hold my hand, that I can share secrets with, who likes me with no makeup on. Someone who appreciates my strengths, or even KNOWS them in the first place.
I really want to fall in love, and I know I wont find it. It never comes unless you dont want it to. Well, for me at least. I dont know one person in the past few MONTHS that I have been involved with who liked me for somehting more than physical or sexual things, at least not to my knowledge. And I realize thats its completely my fault for getting involved with these people, but Im so fucking lonely. Ugh, I disgust myself sometimes.
I want someone I can care about and not feel like I shouldnt, or that they dont care about me. I just want some love in my life, and love isnt something you should want, so I'll just go on feeling this way until I give it up, and then love will find me. That always how it happens.