What else can go wrong?

[ohpoorme]

So I just found out my best friend can't go camping with me because she can't get off work. How does this always happen to me, I tell someone we're gonna do this on this date, make sure you're not doing anything. I ask them if they are...no, okay then so you can come, yeah. alright and then low and behold they already had plans or they found something else to do. I always get screwed over.

This morning my mom and I went to the bank to take out some of my money, because she and i were gonna split the price of a new computer for us. We didn't take out money for certain reasons. I'm looking forward for a new computer, but I'm not gonna buy it all by myself, I earned my money and it's gonna all blow away, I think not. And I'm stressed about being ready for school, we have to get new clothes and supplies, and then we need stuff for camping. Usually everything ends up going the right way, but by the looks of it now, it's not looking to good.

I feel like I have no friends anymore, of the two I had. Everyones getting older and we're drifting apart whether we like it or not. It's somewhat my fault as well because I am insecure and prevent myself from opening up to anyone afraid of let downs i guess. I don't think I'll ever be prepared for school, I always feel like everyone's staring or talking about me, when I know that's far from what they're doing. I can't blame anyone except myself I guess, I need to change, and it's gonna take a fucking long time. It's my sisters birthday today, she's not here, mom and megan are sleeping, and here i am, what do i do now?

This post doesn't even deserve a picture because I'm not even in the mood to put a happy picture up because, I'm not happy.