Mittens & Warm Feelings
I am still young, and don't really know anything at all about life... but it seems to me that you need things to be really bad, before they can be really good again.
For the past couple of weeks I have felt totally different than I have for the past year or so. I thought before that I felt dreadful because something was wrong with me, but it turns out it was just my lifes situation. Everyday now I wake up feeling excited and hopeful, even when I have to go to school or work. I am looking forward to wholesome things again. Just sitting in a car listening to music, looking at the waves and enjoying each others company. Getting breakfast made for me. Being picked up from school. Bringing me tea... Ahh! :) We became "offical" on September... but the feelings have been there much, much longer than that. We have been best friends for long enough that we are totally comfortable with what each other are really like, so I can basically be retarded and not worry what he's thinking. For as long as we have felt strongly for each other, we have yet to say "I love you" yet.. that really makes me respect him. I hate when people throw that term around to seduce people into liking them.
not the best picture, but there arn't a lot of us yet!
I no longer feel the need to get fucked up everyday. I can go weeks without smokeing weed, and only drink on the weekends if there's a party or something. It's so great to be excited about life again! Along with new love, the season is slowly changing. Fall, winter... ah, it all goes so well together! I have dreams of walking down paths on chilly fall days, admiring the beautiful colors of autumn and enjoying the company of the best friend I have ever had thus far in my life. Fall tends to pass quickly, then the warm feelings and chilling days of winter will be here, and I will get to enjoy the excitement of that first snowfall, waiting, checking the weather everyday anticipating any sign of snow. Brent and I can't wait to play in the snow, build snowmen and go sledding! I haven't done that stuff in years! It WILL happen. I am SO excited, yet still enjoying the present time as well!
Speaking of the seasons, the signs that it's turning to fall have begun to appear! I almost always wear a sweater or long sleeved shirt outside, less fans on it my bedroom, chill nights... I had my first pumpkin spice latte of the year from Starbucks the other day; today I was at the bulk barn and saw some Stash tea... it was all seasonal flavours! I am broke, so only bought one: Holiday Chai! It is like regular chai but better! It also has flavours or gingerbread, and supposedly rum... but I only taste the gingerbread. It is AMAZING. I am not taking it too fast this year though. Tonight is the first time I have listened to Christmas music yet this year! Usually I start in June and am totally sick of it by Deccember... not so this year! Also, Brent is a fellow Christmas lover so this should be good! The only part that will be not so great this year is the fact that I will be very broke because of school... I will make up for it next year though!
Holiday Chai is a festive blend of premium black teas along with an exotic melange of spices including nutmeg, cinnamon, ginger, allspice, clove, and cardamom. Natural flavorings of gingerbread and rum also enliven this unique tea.
For the past couple of weeks I have felt totally different than I have for the past year or so. I thought before that I felt dreadful because something was wrong with me, but it turns out it was just my lifes situation. Everyday now I wake up feeling excited and hopeful, even when I have to go to school or work. I am looking forward to wholesome things again. Just sitting in a car listening to music, looking at the waves and enjoying each others company. Getting breakfast made for me. Being picked up from school. Bringing me tea... Ahh! :) We became "offical" on September... but the feelings have been there much, much longer than that. We have been best friends for long enough that we are totally comfortable with what each other are really like, so I can basically be retarded and not worry what he's thinking. For as long as we have felt strongly for each other, we have yet to say "I love you" yet.. that really makes me respect him. I hate when people throw that term around to seduce people into liking them.
not the best picture, but there arn't a lot of us yet!
I no longer feel the need to get fucked up everyday. I can go weeks without smokeing weed, and only drink on the weekends if there's a party or something. It's so great to be excited about life again! Along with new love, the season is slowly changing. Fall, winter... ah, it all goes so well together! I have dreams of walking down paths on chilly fall days, admiring the beautiful colors of autumn and enjoying the company of the best friend I have ever had thus far in my life. Fall tends to pass quickly, then the warm feelings and chilling days of winter will be here, and I will get to enjoy the excitement of that first snowfall, waiting, checking the weather everyday anticipating any sign of snow. Brent and I can't wait to play in the snow, build snowmen and go sledding! I haven't done that stuff in years! It WILL happen. I am SO excited, yet still enjoying the present time as well!
Speaking of the seasons, the signs that it's turning to fall have begun to appear! I almost always wear a sweater or long sleeved shirt outside, less fans on it my bedroom, chill nights... I had my first pumpkin spice latte of the year from Starbucks the other day; today I was at the bulk barn and saw some Stash tea... it was all seasonal flavours! I am broke, so only bought one: Holiday Chai! It is like regular chai but better! It also has flavours or gingerbread, and supposedly rum... but I only taste the gingerbread. It is AMAZING. I am not taking it too fast this year though. Tonight is the first time I have listened to Christmas music yet this year! Usually I start in June and am totally sick of it by Deccember... not so this year! Also, Brent is a fellow Christmas lover so this should be good! The only part that will be not so great this year is the fact that I will be very broke because of school... I will make up for it next year though!
Holiday Chai is a festive blend of premium black teas along with an exotic melange of spices including nutmeg, cinnamon, ginger, allspice, clove, and cardamom. Natural flavorings of gingerbread and rum also enliven this unique tea.
