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what am i supposed to do?
my dad calls me, the first time in at least a year. keep in mind i haven't actually seen him in six years. he calls to ask how everything is, tells me happy easter, and that he misses me. then, he drops the ball. my step mother has cancer and doesn't have long to live. the first thing that crosses my mind is "well that's what she gets for all those years of hell she put us through." how awful of a person am i? i want to feel bad for him and her and their son, my half brother, but it's so hard. i hate myself for feeling this way, i really do. when i started crying on the phone he said, "don't cry princess, i don't want to hear you cry, it's not your fault." then he told me it'd been a year since he quit drinking and that a lot has changed in his life. he told me he understands a lot more now, more than he ever could have before, and he's not angry anymore. he said he has no more problems like he used to. he said he misses me and loves me. he told me that he moved and gave me the new address and phone number. i don't know how to feel or what to think...
my dad calls me, the first time in at least a year. keep in mind i haven't actually seen him in six years. he calls to ask how everything is, tells me happy easter, and that he misses me. then, he drops the ball. my step mother has cancer and doesn't have long to live. the first thing that crosses my mind is "well that's what she gets for all those years of hell she put us through." how awful of a person am i? i want to feel bad for him and her and their son, my half brother, but it's so hard. i hate myself for feeling this way, i really do. when i started crying on the phone he said, "don't cry princess, i don't want to hear you cry, it's not your fault." then he told me it'd been a year since he quit drinking and that a lot has changed in his life. he told me he understands a lot more now, more than he ever could have before, and he's not angry anymore. he said he has no more problems like he used to. he said he misses me and loves me. he told me that he moved and gave me the new address and phone number. i don't know how to feel or what to think...