i should do it for me.

[ohodio]

I know I need to keep writing. I have a love and hate relationship with words. On one hand it's all I want, to write and write and write. On the other, I start it and feel defeated. I fear I won't succeed if I don't work on my writing. I know I'm talented in many ways, but I shine most when I'm drumming away at the keyboard with vigor. If I get going I'm unstoppable. When I create something to be proud of, I feel like I'm invincible, and that this will stay forever.

The feeling fades. I read what I've written and shake my head.