Yeah I'm really lucky to have him. I'd been in an abusive relationship for 8 years (this was a decade ago and I'm still unpacking aspects of it and unpicking the scar tissue). I had sworn off ever partnering up again literally two days before we met up IRL after connecting on OKCupid. Neither of us thought anything romantic was going to come of it but we got along really well and were expecting a fruitful friendship. But life, uh, finds a way haha
We didn't actually meet until our mid 30s so we both have baggage and that shit will rear its head if you try to bury it and don't deal with it head on, which we're finally doing now. ADHD/OCD/(c)PTSD (him) + AuDHD/(c)PTSD (me) can definitely make things a challenge and has threatened to rip things apart before. I feel like a lot of couples probably would have called it quits but we're middle aged, feel like we're both at the Last Chance Saloon of r'ships, and still see enough of value/have the love still there, to want to work on things and fix them. It's always tempting to say it's great and easy when things are going well and there's no problems, but the real test is how you handle it when the hard times come - and they will. Oh boy did they ever come for us. We're both stubborn as fuck which helps in not wanting to just can the whole thing lmao
Now I know you didn't ask for any of this haha but I just wanted to illustrate it's never too late, there are good ones out there, and if it really is a supporting and loving partnership, you work together to make sure the other is happy. If you want to be alone with a bunch of cats, like I was before, that's fine too! I hope you are able to find what you need to be content :)
We didn't actually meet until our mid 30s so we both have baggage and that shit will rear its head if you try to bury it and don't deal with it head on, which we're finally doing now. ADHD/OCD/(c)PTSD (him) + AuDHD/(c)PTSD (me) can definitely make things a challenge and has threatened to rip things apart before. I feel like a lot of couples probably would have called it quits but we're middle aged, feel like we're both at the Last Chance Saloon of r'ships, and still see enough of value/have the love still there, to want to work on things and fix them. It's always tempting to say it's great and easy when things are going well and there's no problems, but the real test is how you handle it when the hard times come - and they will. Oh boy did they ever come for us. We're both stubborn as fuck which helps in not wanting to just can the whole thing lmao
Now I know you didn't ask for any of this haha but I just wanted to illustrate it's never too late, there are good ones out there, and if it really is a supporting and loving partnership, you work together to make sure the other is happy. If you want to be alone with a bunch of cats, like I was before, that's fine too! I hope you are able to find what you need to be content :)
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