I’ve been telling my friends that the over arching theme of this year has been loss. For me, for my loved ones, for so many I know, and globally. Loss of life, loss of security/safety, loss of some phase of life you didn’t realize you said goodbye to.
This has multiplied and developed that feeling for me in many ways. I cannot understate how important one direction was in my early womanhood, I was never and will never be a fan of anything like that again. Im so fucking sad that Liam’s life was full of pain over the years (pain others inflicted on him, pain he inflicted on himself, pain he inflicted on others), sad down to the bone about it. I’m sad about Louis losing his mom, his sister, his bandmate-brother in all too quick succession. I’m sad for the sweet, innocent boys they were on that X factor stage. I’m sad so few people will learn from the way Liam was treated in the public eye and will now aim the same venom at anyone around him. STOP mining the humanity out of his family, his victim, his loved ones, his girlfriend. Fucking leave it be.
I was so touched by Louis and Zayn’s very personal messages (it felt like my heart cracked open like an egg tbh) but I don’t blame Harry a single bit for keeping up the wall of controlled professionalism over the years, no one deserves to consume his vulnerability, you don’t get to ask him for shit.
That being said, I’ve seen so many tiktoks of people mourning in the same complicated and touching way I know so many are, alone in our homes thinking about the girls we were, the nature of time, grieving the end of an idea as well as a person and a time.
I love how you expressed these emotions and I have the same deep feeling of dread over death and loss in the past year. Maybe it's because we have similar ages and it's natural to start questioning some things about life, but I've been losing people that were important to me, even if they are only distancing themselves.
I'm using my old tumblr account to find some comfort and found a beautiful text post about how you can only understand the 1d fenomenon if you were keeping up with them back then. it's what turns our fandom into a community and we'll get through this
I could have written this comment ❤️ look after yourself bb! I have been feeling almost existential lately and trying to take it day y day, idk… life is a lot
This has multiplied and developed that feeling for me in many ways. I cannot understate how important one direction was in my early womanhood, I was never and will never be a fan of anything like that again. Im so fucking sad that Liam’s life was full of pain over the years (pain others inflicted on him, pain he inflicted on himself, pain he inflicted on others), sad down to the bone about it. I’m sad about Louis losing his mom, his sister, his bandmate-brother in all too quick succession. I’m sad for the sweet, innocent boys they were on that X factor stage. I’m sad so few people will learn from the way Liam was treated in the public eye and will now aim the same venom at anyone around him. STOP mining the humanity out of his family, his victim, his loved ones, his girlfriend. Fucking leave it be.
I was so touched by Louis and Zayn’s very personal messages (it felt like my heart cracked open like an egg tbh) but I don’t blame Harry a single bit for keeping up the wall of controlled professionalism over the years, no one deserves to consume his vulnerability, you don’t get to ask him for shit.
That being said, I’ve seen so many tiktoks of people mourning in the same complicated and touching way I know so many are, alone in our homes thinking about the girls we were, the nature of time, grieving the end of an idea as well as a person and a time.
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I'm using my old tumblr account to find some comfort and found a beautiful text post about how you can only understand the 1d fenomenon if you were keeping up with them back then. it's what turns our fandom into a community and we'll get through this
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