i am dull(don't read if you don't like being bored)
weigh in: 91water weight i hope... i was down to 87 last week)its better than what i saw last night 93!
Today I already had:
2 egg whites(40 cals, 0 fat, 2 carbs, 12 protein)
1/2 piece low carb wheat bread(20 cals, 0 fat, 5 carb, 2 protein)
and 1/8th of a pumpkin spice muffin from dunkins
ewww its one of those limited time muffins... im hoping its not that bad.
plus my non dairy coffee creamer in 2 cups of coffee(2.5 tablespoons). 50 cals, 2.5 fat, 5 carbs
I'm planning on having nothing else the entire day.
anyways, I have my appointment today with the meds nurse. I'm on risperdal right now(one of the side effects is significant weight gain! scary!!!). It doesnt seem to help my anxiety. plus im having horrible side effects, including: headaches, dry mouth, blurred vision, and water retention. not good! I have only been on it one full week now. I would like to be on something thats jsut for anxiety, thats my main target. The bad part is I don't have insurance, jsut free care from any hospital... which means in order for me to get any medication, the medication needs to have a coupon with it from my nurse, then its free... I'm thinking she jsut put me on this because it had a coupon. but i want out now!
On another note. I'm becoming more and more faitful these past few months. Realling coming in touch with my spirituality. I want to actually attend a christian church sometime(when im not embarrassed too..)I was born and raised a catholic but my family has always been off and on with going to church. I was baptised and all. But the catholic proceders don't cut it for me. There monotonous and rigid. I ant something different everyday. A church thats warm,inviting, and uplifting.
I have my second appointment tommorow with the newengland ahir academy. basically to go over financial aid and stuff. The sucky thing is since i have been out of highschool more than 1 year, my cosmetology hours got spli in half. So since im going to continue my hours i have to start earning my hours at like 427... and i need 1,000 to be certified. If i went back last year i would have started earning hours at 853. oh well... Now school is going to take me 3-4 months. hopefully with a pell grant or a loan I can cut my costs in half? cause right now im looking at paying 5,600 bucks plus the cost of equiptment 750$.
I'm being positive i swear!
alright so I promise tommorow or even later tonight I'll post some of my recent poetry. count on it!
alright lovies, off to the shower even though I don't want to see my body today at all
Today I already had:
2 egg whites(40 cals, 0 fat, 2 carbs, 12 protein)
1/2 piece low carb wheat bread(20 cals, 0 fat, 5 carb, 2 protein)
and 1/8th of a pumpkin spice muffin from dunkins
ewww its one of those limited time muffins... im hoping its not that bad.
plus my non dairy coffee creamer in 2 cups of coffee(2.5 tablespoons). 50 cals, 2.5 fat, 5 carbs
I'm planning on having nothing else the entire day.
anyways, I have my appointment today with the meds nurse. I'm on risperdal right now(one of the side effects is significant weight gain! scary!!!). It doesnt seem to help my anxiety. plus im having horrible side effects, including: headaches, dry mouth, blurred vision, and water retention. not good! I have only been on it one full week now. I would like to be on something thats jsut for anxiety, thats my main target. The bad part is I don't have insurance, jsut free care from any hospital... which means in order for me to get any medication, the medication needs to have a coupon with it from my nurse, then its free... I'm thinking she jsut put me on this because it had a coupon. but i want out now!
On another note. I'm becoming more and more faitful these past few months. Realling coming in touch with my spirituality. I want to actually attend a christian church sometime(when im not embarrassed too..)I was born and raised a catholic but my family has always been off and on with going to church. I was baptised and all. But the catholic proceders don't cut it for me. There monotonous and rigid. I ant something different everyday. A church thats warm,inviting, and uplifting.
I have my second appointment tommorow with the newengland ahir academy. basically to go over financial aid and stuff. The sucky thing is since i have been out of highschool more than 1 year, my cosmetology hours got spli in half. So since im going to continue my hours i have to start earning my hours at like 427... and i need 1,000 to be certified. If i went back last year i would have started earning hours at 853. oh well... Now school is going to take me 3-4 months. hopefully with a pell grant or a loan I can cut my costs in half? cause right now im looking at paying 5,600 bucks plus the cost of equiptment 750$.
I'm being positive i swear!
alright so I promise tommorow or even later tonight I'll post some of my recent poetry. count on it!
alright lovies, off to the shower even though I don't want to see my body today at all