i'm not going for a gramatically correct award
i'm just going to write freestyle.
i'm afraid that these walls are closing in on me. who am i to think of anything but life? i find myself lost and lost again. i went on a date on friday night and really enjoyed myself. i don't know what i'm doing. he's not my boyfriend. yet i wish he'd call. i like alicia keys no one. i like the feeling of holding a blanket against my cold body. i find myself relaxed in high school. i find myself tense at home. i hate living in this household. i hate my oldest brother.my older brother is the shit. i love acceptance. crank dat soulja boy gets on my nerves. i am tired of the feeling that no one finds me attractive. i'm glad he said i'm not fat. i'm glad he said i looked nice. i'm glad i found a cute guy. i hope he turns out to be my boyfriend. i hate racism. i don't care if my parents like him or not. i'm gay. i hate being gay. i like pride events. i like feeeling like an individual. i like other people making me feel like i'm part of something and not alone. i want to make a change.i want a movement. i want to be famous. i'll die for what i believe in. i feel abortion is a woman's body though i do not agree with the death of a child. if we stop abortion it'll just go on illegally and kill more people. i'm afraid. i don't believe in god. i'm afraid. i don't know why i'm afraid. my feet are cold. i hate being cold. i like the movie jumanji. no one understands me. i don't know what to do. life is life. time is time. who ever always has their eye on time? he should call. i think i'm going to like him a lot. we only went on one date. i hope i do good on sats. i want to go to upenn. i don't have confidence. we don't have money. life is chaotic. i don't wanna go to bcc. i hate the way rubbing my eyes feels. i hate when my eyes itch. actually my upper lip itches. /scratches. ineed to clip my fingernails. who is this outside? i hate most of my neighbors. the elderly people nextdoor are cool. i hate stuck up people. most old people scare me. i hated the youth service conference. i had weird dreams last night. dreams i won't tell anyone. do you feel like i tell you a lot? i tell you nothing. peace.
i'm afraid that these walls are closing in on me. who am i to think of anything but life? i find myself lost and lost again. i went on a date on friday night and really enjoyed myself. i don't know what i'm doing. he's not my boyfriend. yet i wish he'd call. i like alicia keys no one. i like the feeling of holding a blanket against my cold body. i find myself relaxed in high school. i find myself tense at home. i hate living in this household. i hate my oldest brother.my older brother is the shit. i love acceptance. crank dat soulja boy gets on my nerves. i am tired of the feeling that no one finds me attractive. i'm glad he said i'm not fat. i'm glad he said i looked nice. i'm glad i found a cute guy. i hope he turns out to be my boyfriend. i hate racism. i don't care if my parents like him or not. i'm gay. i hate being gay. i like pride events. i like feeeling like an individual. i like other people making me feel like i'm part of something and not alone. i want to make a change.i want a movement. i want to be famous. i'll die for what i believe in. i feel abortion is a woman's body though i do not agree with the death of a child. if we stop abortion it'll just go on illegally and kill more people. i'm afraid. i don't believe in god. i'm afraid. i don't know why i'm afraid. my feet are cold. i hate being cold. i like the movie jumanji. no one understands me. i don't know what to do. life is life. time is time. who ever always has their eye on time? he should call. i think i'm going to like him a lot. we only went on one date. i hope i do good on sats. i want to go to upenn. i don't have confidence. we don't have money. life is chaotic. i don't wanna go to bcc. i hate the way rubbing my eyes feels. i hate when my eyes itch. actually my upper lip itches. /scratches. ineed to clip my fingernails. who is this outside? i hate most of my neighbors. the elderly people nextdoor are cool. i hate stuck up people. most old people scare me. i hated the youth service conference. i had weird dreams last night. dreams i won't tell anyone. do you feel like i tell you a lot? i tell you nothing. peace.