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okay SO.
well first and foremost i am having MORE car trouble.see okay my last car i had for about four months and then it was totaled in a hit and run accident by some asshole who did not have insurance.so anyhow there is something called GAP INSURANCE(the insurance that says if your car is totaled you are not responsible for paying it off,but you can only get this insurance if your car is like five or something years old anything older is not eligible) that i did not have because i have never heard of it and well...we got stuck paying off the car that i NO LONGER OWN.okay that was the beginning of the year...january actually.so i had to go out and buy a used car with basically no money and ended up with this piece of junk that i have now BUT i cannot complain about because at least i have a car.sooooo it has been not even a YEAR and my new car just got hit.and is possibly getting totaled.sigh.
here is what happened....so i was driving down this road that is a really big hill.some guy in a ford explorer lost control of his car because his brakes went out and straddled the curb all the way down and did not hit anything until he hit me.the only reason that happened was because i was sitting beside a pole and the was hit the pole or veer into the road.anyway the body damage is so much itself without even actually taking it apart they are probably going to total it.and this is ALL AFTER october first...which is HOW LONG AGO...when maryland lawmakers passed a law that if the damage exceeds 75% of the cars worth they total it.WHAT!!!why not one hundred i mean SERIOUSLY!what!that makes NOOO sense.okay so that is what i was up against...again.my car being totaled and having NO GAP INSURANCE again since my car is too old.and having to pay for THIS CAR ALSO as well as buy a new car in this crappy ass economy with NO money down.they wont sell me a car pretty much.they said on the news for a 20,000 dollar car they want 5 of 6 thousand down.psh yeah right.
okay SO SO SOOOO the other day i was driving home from my friends house in dc and it was 9 pm.i had to be at work at 4 am.driving driving and i need to get gas.i got off on exit 13 which SHOULD have been a sign but okay whatever.so i stop to get gas and my gas door is stuck shut from the accident.sigh.i pry and kick and beat and cuss at it until it comes halfway open enough that i can shove the gas nozzle in.so i get my gas and start driving back and on the way i realize my car is driving really weird.it completely does not want to go and i can't figure out why.there is a really strange loud noise coming from the back driver side of my car.drivedrivedrive and BOOM.a fucking awful loud sound and the entire car begins to shake and rumble all around.i pull over and my tire is basically sliced open.HOW!HOW!no could not have been just a nail we can patch up.noooo.it is on the side wall of my tire that it looks like someone slit it open but obviously i ran something over.so now i need a new tire on a car they might total.AWESOME!!YEAAAHH!
sooo what else?well i have been having these headaches that...man.they really last from the moment i wake up..the MOMENT...to when i fall asleep.if i am conscious i have a headache.and these is a spot on my forehead that feels like someone is driving a screwdriver in it.OUCH.this has been going on for almost a month now.a nonstop headache for almost a month.ohhmyyygoood.it sometimes really gets to me and makes me super cranky and not nice to be around.oh!and upon having a few episodes of my heart really actually feeling like it stopped....a pause and complete loss of breath and then feeling like someone slammed their fist into my chest to restart my heart...i went to the cardiologist.they think i have a arrhythmia.which is not bad at all so whew on that one.but these HEADACHES!
also casey gave me his old bike to use for work because it is much more of an equipped road bike for me to be riding back and forth to work.so that is awesome.it is really pretty and this silverish gray and i am putting kelly gear bar tape on it.WOO!still have not named it yet but in time when we hang out i shall reveal its name.
i have been starting to write more lately and it feels so so so good.i have been getting a lot of my feelings about my relationship out of me and i have so much more to write about still.i am still reeling and spinning from it all so the writing helps.also i am practicing my voice because casey wants to play some guitar chords and have me work on melody overtop them.it should be interesting if i can just get over my fear!
what else what elseeeee....work is going well.very very well.i watched the entire fifth season of the l word in one day this week haha.it was time well spent because ohhotDAMN am i in love with tina.okay now i need to get a shower and clean some.i am working on my messyness....very slowly that is.but it starts SOMEWHERE!working on getting over that and my saddepressionstuff but but but the writing helps a lot with that.as well as my amazing friends.
oh and you all should listen to this tilly and wall song.i HEART<3ITSO.
well first and foremost i am having MORE car trouble.see okay my last car i had for about four months and then it was totaled in a hit and run accident by some asshole who did not have insurance.so anyhow there is something called GAP INSURANCE(the insurance that says if your car is totaled you are not responsible for paying it off,but you can only get this insurance if your car is like five or something years old anything older is not eligible) that i did not have because i have never heard of it and well...we got stuck paying off the car that i NO LONGER OWN.okay that was the beginning of the year...january actually.so i had to go out and buy a used car with basically no money and ended up with this piece of junk that i have now BUT i cannot complain about because at least i have a car.sooooo it has been not even a YEAR and my new car just got hit.and is possibly getting totaled.sigh.
here is what happened....so i was driving down this road that is a really big hill.some guy in a ford explorer lost control of his car because his brakes went out and straddled the curb all the way down and did not hit anything until he hit me.the only reason that happened was because i was sitting beside a pole and the was hit the pole or veer into the road.anyway the body damage is so much itself without even actually taking it apart they are probably going to total it.and this is ALL AFTER october first...which is HOW LONG AGO...when maryland lawmakers passed a law that if the damage exceeds 75% of the cars worth they total it.WHAT!!!why not one hundred i mean SERIOUSLY!what!that makes NOOO sense.okay so that is what i was up against...again.my car being totaled and having NO GAP INSURANCE again since my car is too old.and having to pay for THIS CAR ALSO as well as buy a new car in this crappy ass economy with NO money down.they wont sell me a car pretty much.they said on the news for a 20,000 dollar car they want 5 of 6 thousand down.psh yeah right.
okay SO SO SOOOO the other day i was driving home from my friends house in dc and it was 9 pm.i had to be at work at 4 am.driving driving and i need to get gas.i got off on exit 13 which SHOULD have been a sign but okay whatever.so i stop to get gas and my gas door is stuck shut from the accident.sigh.i pry and kick and beat and cuss at it until it comes halfway open enough that i can shove the gas nozzle in.so i get my gas and start driving back and on the way i realize my car is driving really weird.it completely does not want to go and i can't figure out why.there is a really strange loud noise coming from the back driver side of my car.drivedrivedrive and BOOM.a fucking awful loud sound and the entire car begins to shake and rumble all around.i pull over and my tire is basically sliced open.HOW!HOW!no could not have been just a nail we can patch up.noooo.it is on the side wall of my tire that it looks like someone slit it open but obviously i ran something over.so now i need a new tire on a car they might total.AWESOME!!YEAAAHH!
sooo what else?well i have been having these headaches that...man.they really last from the moment i wake up..the MOMENT...to when i fall asleep.if i am conscious i have a headache.and these is a spot on my forehead that feels like someone is driving a screwdriver in it.OUCH.this has been going on for almost a month now.a nonstop headache for almost a month.ohhmyyygoood.it sometimes really gets to me and makes me super cranky and not nice to be around.oh!and upon having a few episodes of my heart really actually feeling like it stopped....a pause and complete loss of breath and then feeling like someone slammed their fist into my chest to restart my heart...i went to the cardiologist.they think i have a arrhythmia.which is not bad at all so whew on that one.but these HEADACHES!
also casey gave me his old bike to use for work because it is much more of an equipped road bike for me to be riding back and forth to work.so that is awesome.it is really pretty and this silverish gray and i am putting kelly gear bar tape on it.WOO!still have not named it yet but in time when we hang out i shall reveal its name.
i have been starting to write more lately and it feels so so so good.i have been getting a lot of my feelings about my relationship out of me and i have so much more to write about still.i am still reeling and spinning from it all so the writing helps.also i am practicing my voice because casey wants to play some guitar chords and have me work on melody overtop them.it should be interesting if i can just get over my fear!
what else what elseeeee....work is going well.very very well.i watched the entire fifth season of the l word in one day this week haha.it was time well spent because ohhotDAMN am i in love with tina.okay now i need to get a shower and clean some.i am working on my messyness....very slowly that is.but it starts SOMEWHERE!working on getting over that and my saddepressionstuff but but but the writing helps a lot with that.as well as my amazing friends.
oh and you all should listen to this tilly and wall song.i HEART<3ITSO.