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i totally fucking wish i did not work at 2pm tomorrow.why tomorrow of ALL days.fuck.
sleepsleepsleepsleepsleep.
lots of songs in my head.
lots of song lyrics because i can't think outside of that.
my nose is too stuffy and my eyes burn too much and i need to calm down.stoptheshake.
sleepsleepsleepsleep.
can't sleep.
i am going to return to my song lyrics.
i just can't stand my own thoughts right now.
i want it to go down on record that i still love you.
even though this hurtshurtshurtshurtsacheshurtsstings
i still love you so fucking much.
there is such a mix of anger and love and pain.
i don't even know what the name of this emotion is.
from one to the next is very tiring.
if you were trying to hurt me you did
and that is only because i truly and honestly love you.
i let you in deep enough and far enough to have that power.
but i wouldn't have it any other way.
i can't just smackslam face into the wall out of love.
i will always wonder.
ouch.
now back to trying to sleep.
sleepsleepsleepsleepsleep.
lots of songs in my head.
lots of song lyrics because i can't think outside of that.
my nose is too stuffy and my eyes burn too much and i need to calm down.stoptheshake.
sleepsleepsleepsleep.
can't sleep.
i am going to return to my song lyrics.
i just can't stand my own thoughts right now.
i want it to go down on record that i still love you.
even though this hurtshurtshurtshurtsacheshurtsstings
i still love you so fucking much.
there is such a mix of anger and love and pain.
i don't even know what the name of this emotion is.
from one to the next is very tiring.
if you were trying to hurt me you did
and that is only because i truly and honestly love you.
i let you in deep enough and far enough to have that power.
but i wouldn't have it any other way.
i can't just smackslam face into the wall out of love.
i will always wonder.
ouch.
now back to trying to sleep.