me babbling.
so i found out today that they are not upset at me at all.
my mind plays stupid tricks on me like that.
when i think i lost my friends, it was just all in my head. i think the stress of life did that to me.
i love mike and abby they are the best.
moving to ucf wont be bad.
everyone at my work pretty much live out there, so car pooling will save me SO MUCH MONEY.
me and sabrina had a good walk,
talked about a lot of stuff.
she told me she hung out with jay, and he told her about how everyone in our "past life" was doing.
if u can refer to it as that? im really surprised at a lot of people, more dissapointed, because i only wanted the best for all, but life takes its toll.
then we talked about how its crazy that we have been friends since elementary school. she is the one person i know will never go away. even if she moves, we will always be close friends.
i miss chantal a lot. i never get to see her, ever. shes in mexico right now, im happy for her. i know she wants to see the world, so do i. just cant right now.
i miss jilli, and sam. but i did get to see sam the other night, we ate hamburgers and played card games at my friends house. fun times. we recapped on our lives, and how much boys suck. ha. truth.
chris is becoming a close friend. we talk about everything.
and jesse. we had our awkward times, but now we are more friends than ever. its good to know.
i am really greatful for what i have. and who i have in my life. i wouldnt change that.
my mind does wander to the past though,
alyssia, one of my best friends from middle school, we got in a fight, didnt talk all high schoool, until one day my mom says she showed up at my house. and then, a few months later i got a message from her on myspace apologizing to me on how shitty she was. i miss her, she came back to town and i was suppose to see her, but missed her. i think im gonna message her now.
and erica. she was a big part of my high scchool. a big part. couldnt have got through most of it without her, and many times when i think of her, i want to just try to fix things, but i know things happen for a reason, and my gut has never steered me wrong, ok not gut, brain.
and ryan. oh jeez oh jeez. i cant say that i miss him, hearing about him just makes me cringe. just because i know that he has SUCH a huge head about himself these days, that hearing his name spoken like he is so great is like feeding the stupid fire. but i can say i miss feeling that close to someone, i mean when the times were good. i hope nothing but the best for him (and erica). but i have this huge feeling that his inner demons ( that no one really knows about) are gonna hurt him, maybe not now, but they will. i wish we could have been friends, but i know thats impossible. plus, i know he talks shit on me so hard these days, but hey, thats ryan.
i miss too many people, but i know ill meet many more people in lifes time.
im planning on a trip to california,
today tyler asked me to join him in going, but josue already asked earlier, plus josue says he is gonna try to get me a free flight, as he might be getting one for free from his sponser, which would be awesome.
im pretty sure with either person, we are gonna go to the block and/ or vans corporate and visit chase. both mentioned it.
i need to go there, to get my foot further into the door i want to be in. i need to meet people on a higher level in the company, though ive already met a bunch.
but i feel california is where i need to be to have all the opportunites. ive considered moving there many times. but i think i actually might.
my friend austin said i should move there with him, and i might, plus marissa my old employee and now taylor live there, so its not like ill be totally alone. it might be the best thing to get out of orlando.
on another note, surprising thing.
today i wore no makeup to work, and got called pretty 3 times, i dont get it,
are you stupid? must be. i looked hideous. i really dont get it.
alright, no more rambling,
FRUIT LOOPS are calling for me.
my mind plays stupid tricks on me like that.
when i think i lost my friends, it was just all in my head. i think the stress of life did that to me.
i love mike and abby they are the best.
moving to ucf wont be bad.
everyone at my work pretty much live out there, so car pooling will save me SO MUCH MONEY.
me and sabrina had a good walk,
talked about a lot of stuff.
she told me she hung out with jay, and he told her about how everyone in our "past life" was doing.
if u can refer to it as that? im really surprised at a lot of people, more dissapointed, because i only wanted the best for all, but life takes its toll.
then we talked about how its crazy that we have been friends since elementary school. she is the one person i know will never go away. even if she moves, we will always be close friends.
i miss chantal a lot. i never get to see her, ever. shes in mexico right now, im happy for her. i know she wants to see the world, so do i. just cant right now.
i miss jilli, and sam. but i did get to see sam the other night, we ate hamburgers and played card games at my friends house. fun times. we recapped on our lives, and how much boys suck. ha. truth.
chris is becoming a close friend. we talk about everything.
and jesse. we had our awkward times, but now we are more friends than ever. its good to know.
i am really greatful for what i have. and who i have in my life. i wouldnt change that.
my mind does wander to the past though,
alyssia, one of my best friends from middle school, we got in a fight, didnt talk all high schoool, until one day my mom says she showed up at my house. and then, a few months later i got a message from her on myspace apologizing to me on how shitty she was. i miss her, she came back to town and i was suppose to see her, but missed her. i think im gonna message her now.
and erica. she was a big part of my high scchool. a big part. couldnt have got through most of it without her, and many times when i think of her, i want to just try to fix things, but i know things happen for a reason, and my gut has never steered me wrong, ok not gut, brain.
and ryan. oh jeez oh jeez. i cant say that i miss him, hearing about him just makes me cringe. just because i know that he has SUCH a huge head about himself these days, that hearing his name spoken like he is so great is like feeding the stupid fire. but i can say i miss feeling that close to someone, i mean when the times were good. i hope nothing but the best for him (and erica). but i have this huge feeling that his inner demons ( that no one really knows about) are gonna hurt him, maybe not now, but they will. i wish we could have been friends, but i know thats impossible. plus, i know he talks shit on me so hard these days, but hey, thats ryan.
i miss too many people, but i know ill meet many more people in lifes time.
im planning on a trip to california,
today tyler asked me to join him in going, but josue already asked earlier, plus josue says he is gonna try to get me a free flight, as he might be getting one for free from his sponser, which would be awesome.
im pretty sure with either person, we are gonna go to the block and/ or vans corporate and visit chase. both mentioned it.
i need to go there, to get my foot further into the door i want to be in. i need to meet people on a higher level in the company, though ive already met a bunch.
but i feel california is where i need to be to have all the opportunites. ive considered moving there many times. but i think i actually might.
my friend austin said i should move there with him, and i might, plus marissa my old employee and now taylor live there, so its not like ill be totally alone. it might be the best thing to get out of orlando.
on another note, surprising thing.
today i wore no makeup to work, and got called pretty 3 times, i dont get it,
are you stupid? must be. i looked hideous. i really dont get it.
alright, no more rambling,
FRUIT LOOPS are calling for me.