Upset and hatery
First Matter
Today I am feel really crap and alsorts but i though i would talk it out on my Lj. Well today has been a horrible day in many ways it was like the otherday whe i cried my eyes out over my Nan..this lady said she talked to my names spirt and i believe it as well. But im not to sure why shes dead and why she had to be. She was like a best friend to me. While this lady was talking she went throught the family like my dad and my mum relationship. And her and my grandad. it was quiet weird i though knew what was going on. But when this lady asked me my name, then my dad told her "Charlene" and she asked for my D.O.B, she added all my numbers all, and she said i was Physic and very smart. But when she talked to my nan she was telling her what would happen to me i started crying thinking My nans back yay. But she wasn't only her spirt. I though today why? did she contact my nan after 1 year and a half why?.
But to be honest i was scared to her from her. All the other night i couldn't sleep all i could think about was my nan. There in heaven, looking over me seeing what i do the actions i make.But there are other points like her seeing her family again. But lastnight i had a dream about her, seeing her again and hugging her telling her i loved her and alsorts. She was the only person who Protected me over what happened. If she saw my now crying she would thing thats not my Charly.But as life goes on she will always be in my heart <3.
Another Matter.
As i was thinking people see me as a little freak who thinks she knows all. I would like to say thats not true. There more to me then what you see, i want to sucessful and i want to show you all that i don't care what others think of things. But other the last year has been hard my ex being a dick asking me stupid question and asking if i wanted him when i don't want anything to do with him. All i need is people to protect me and love me for who i am not what i am. But to be honest that won't happen im just one of those people that people thing Ohh she nice lets just have sex with her. All i want is someone to look after me and i don't care for looks or anything i go for personilty nothing else. But never going to happen so why dream.
so yeah see you xxx