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you know, all the drugs, alcohol, and sex in the world will never give me the satisfaction that i felt after playing a piece of music.
why was i so defiant in high school? i could have been something. i really could have. i always knew that i had it, but i was too lazy and too naive to realize that by going against the better judgment of the band directors i was just killing one of the best things about my life.
i've always felt such a strong connection to music. i never really understood it until now. how am i supposed to fill that void which exists in my life? should i take up another instrument?
it just feels like something has been missing in my life since i stopped performing music and just started to listen to it.
why was i such an idiot?
why was i so defiant in high school? i could have been something. i really could have. i always knew that i had it, but i was too lazy and too naive to realize that by going against the better judgment of the band directors i was just killing one of the best things about my life.
i've always felt such a strong connection to music. i never really understood it until now. how am i supposed to fill that void which exists in my life? should i take up another instrument?
it just feels like something has been missing in my life since i stopped performing music and just started to listen to it.
why was i such an idiot?