the news no one wants to hear

[ohmonkeyme]

dad just came back from the hospital again today. yesterday they couldnt do any tests on my grandpa because his blood was too thin and the pressure too low, so they waited today and did it. collan and liver cancer. they cant do any chemo or radiation because as of right now he cant eat anything. his "food" is given to him in IVs and even before he went into the hospital the only thing he would have was those boost shakes. doctors are saying 6 months. could be more, could be less. but if is unable to eat anything, i'm going with less. seems that they want to take out the liver, but he doesnt want to because he knows there is no point. hes 80+. there really isnt much he can do. he doesnt want to be in the hospital and he doesnt want to leave bills for my dad and uncles.

steve called marty, marty called alan (my uncles) and as of right now dad is over at steves talking. talking means planning. i personally think its too soon, but i guess they know best.

i seem to be taking it the best in the house right now. my dad is just really out of it, my sister has been crying since dad came home about an hour ago and mom just had a break down. dont get me wrong, i am very up set about it, but i dont want to get worked up about it, not yet. to think the worst is going to happen isnt going to help things.

with this news, it seems that some of my family will be coming in a few weeks. im not sure about the others. they might come now, they might wait until june like planned.

all and all. today has been a shitty day