May 30, 2007 20:26
I'm sick of things changing all the time. I hate when people change and relationships change. I hate knowing that no matter how hard you try, things will never be the same, even if you really want them to be. I find it almost impossible to fully trust other people. It's probably because most people I trust only end up letting me down.
Why can't people ever be who you think they are in the beginning?
I'm so ready for this year to be over. Before I didn't want it to end because I felt like there was so much I wanted to do that I didn't. I also didn't want the seniors to be gone, but then I realized, there are only a few seniors I'm actually really good friends with. Not only is my birthday coming up, (June 24th tattoo it somewhere on yourself so you remember) but during summer, everything is just good. It's uncomplicated, less dramatic, and more carefree in general. Right now that's all I need. I need to step back and take a breath and just realize that everything is going to work out.