I'm so tierd of people being fake.
So my friendship with a few people have been a lie.
It hurt me so much. I cried. Then Ryan made me feel stupid. Like i should have known this was coming. I'm childish when it comes to some things. I just kind of think that poeple are honest with me, they show me who they are. Becuase they truely want to be my friend. And when I find out that the person I met at the begining of the year, isn't who they really are. I don't like knowing i've been lied too. I know it's not really lieing, but it feels like it. I still love the poeple who have done that sort of thing, bu I hte how they change. I regret ever saying to anyone that they should change. I want everything back to the way it was. Even though i know, it will never be that way again. The moment is gone. Although, I wish Ryna wouldn't act like i should know that this shit is going to happen. I do wish i could go back to middle school still. Just becuase I don't think im ready for high school. And it has nothing to do with people. I would never wish i wasn't in school with Talyah, Ryan and everyone else. I would die without them. But I'm still scared. The only people who understand how i feel sometimes is Talyah, Lauren, and Chanel. But I'm not so sure anymore. I need a way to just. Start new again. I wanna start over and not worry about stuff. I do. I worry about everything. I'm scared. I'm worried about having friends so i don't have to go through stuff alone, that i'm driving myself into the ground, then with work and so much other stuff. Gosh. Does anyone know how to just forget about the dumb things?
If only i could stay in the chior room forever.
I'm so happy in there. My worries just leave. And i'm having fun and singing and just mkaing memories with my chior friends.
I really need to try harder. Gr. Why can't this be just a tad easier?
I love you talyah and Ryan
It hurt me so much. I cried. Then Ryan made me feel stupid. Like i should have known this was coming. I'm childish when it comes to some things. I just kind of think that poeple are honest with me, they show me who they are. Becuase they truely want to be my friend. And when I find out that the person I met at the begining of the year, isn't who they really are. I don't like knowing i've been lied too. I know it's not really lieing, but it feels like it. I still love the poeple who have done that sort of thing, bu I hte how they change. I regret ever saying to anyone that they should change. I want everything back to the way it was. Even though i know, it will never be that way again. The moment is gone. Although, I wish Ryna wouldn't act like i should know that this shit is going to happen. I do wish i could go back to middle school still. Just becuase I don't think im ready for high school. And it has nothing to do with people. I would never wish i wasn't in school with Talyah, Ryan and everyone else. I would die without them. But I'm still scared. The only people who understand how i feel sometimes is Talyah, Lauren, and Chanel. But I'm not so sure anymore. I need a way to just. Start new again. I wanna start over and not worry about stuff. I do. I worry about everything. I'm scared. I'm worried about having friends so i don't have to go through stuff alone, that i'm driving myself into the ground, then with work and so much other stuff. Gosh. Does anyone know how to just forget about the dumb things?
If only i could stay in the chior room forever.
I'm so happy in there. My worries just leave. And i'm having fun and singing and just mkaing memories with my chior friends.
I really need to try harder. Gr. Why can't this be just a tad easier?
I love you talyah and Ryan