i feel the best when i'm with you.
it was my sister's birthday party last night. her birthday actually falls on the 29th, but obviously that is a rather shit time to plan a party because most people are skint from christmas, already have plans, or are saving their money for nye. anyway. it was in the function room of this hotel/pub in blisworth. it wasn't a huge party, there were about three other tables in the same room filled with people. i knew most people there.. toni, kirsty + so, bonnie + so, anna and dave, dave, and then tim.. so yeah i know them, but i don't KNOW them, if you know what i mean? so i wasn't the loudest or most sociable person (lets face it, when am i ever?) and for that reason observed a lot more than usual. i happened to make the observation that tim was looking rather fiiiine.
tim is my sister's boyfriends brother.
is that very very weird? i've barely spoken to him before, no more than the usual niceties, hi how are you etc. even gerard is not like a brother. so i don't think it's weird, but i am well aware that to others it may seem so.
anyway. he kept catching my eye, and i'm not sure if it was because i was looking at him a lot and he noticed, or whether he was looking at me too. don't you hate that? then when we went back to my sister's house, he wanted to stay up to watch the fight (poor hatton), and i wasn't tired, so i stayed up too. dave was there also, but asleep, so we were kind of alone. we talked a fair bit. i'm completely confused as to whether he was interested. he was attentive in conversation and in listening to me, looking at me, etc. (i think i spent most of the time looking away from him, scared of idontknowwhat) but then he kept saying things like..
him: i always have cold hands
me: yeah my fingernails are always blue! bad circulation.. but they're usually not too cold.
him: i don't mean to be.... but *touches his hand to mine*
(for the record, they were warmer than mine and we both expressed our suprise.)
and..
him: are you cold, do you want to share some of the cover?
me: nah i'm actually not cold at all
him: you sure? you can have some, i'm not trying to say like 'oh lets share the duvet' i just mean it's big enough to share if you want some...
(i declined cause i really wasn't cold. although i probably should have had some in order to progress things a little.)
i don't know what to make of that? i don't know if he was saying it because he was literally being like.. I AM NOT COMING ONTO YOU, haha, or whether he was just being conscious of how he sounded, considering he is 32 (i know, i know) and i am "the little sister". maddie said it sounded like he was just being really polite in coming onto me, haha. i don't know. nothing happened anyway.. i don't make moves. and he didn't either.. i got the feeling he was interested but i just wasn't sure and i guess considering who he is, its a pretty delicate situation for me to risk being wrong. he started falling asleep and i was knackered too so i thought.. i'll go to bed and let him lay down. and he protested a little saying if i wanted to stay and watch then feel free, but then when i was like noo you're falling asleep, it's fine.. he was like 'oh thankyou'. so he wanted me to go? i don't know. ARGH.
let's face it, the chance will never arise again, as i can't for the life of me think of a time when we would be in that situation again (alone, at night, on the sofa..), considering i see him maybe once every three months.
this is a very long and silly entry. and no, i am not even close to forgetting about mark.
tim is my sister's boyfriends brother.
is that very very weird? i've barely spoken to him before, no more than the usual niceties, hi how are you etc. even gerard is not like a brother. so i don't think it's weird, but i am well aware that to others it may seem so.
anyway. he kept catching my eye, and i'm not sure if it was because i was looking at him a lot and he noticed, or whether he was looking at me too. don't you hate that? then when we went back to my sister's house, he wanted to stay up to watch the fight (poor hatton), and i wasn't tired, so i stayed up too. dave was there also, but asleep, so we were kind of alone. we talked a fair bit. i'm completely confused as to whether he was interested. he was attentive in conversation and in listening to me, looking at me, etc. (i think i spent most of the time looking away from him, scared of idontknowwhat) but then he kept saying things like..
him: i always have cold hands
me: yeah my fingernails are always blue! bad circulation.. but they're usually not too cold.
him: i don't mean to be.... but *touches his hand to mine*
(for the record, they were warmer than mine and we both expressed our suprise.)
and..
him: are you cold, do you want to share some of the cover?
me: nah i'm actually not cold at all
him: you sure? you can have some, i'm not trying to say like 'oh lets share the duvet' i just mean it's big enough to share if you want some...
(i declined cause i really wasn't cold. although i probably should have had some in order to progress things a little.)
i don't know what to make of that? i don't know if he was saying it because he was literally being like.. I AM NOT COMING ONTO YOU, haha, or whether he was just being conscious of how he sounded, considering he is 32 (i know, i know) and i am "the little sister". maddie said it sounded like he was just being really polite in coming onto me, haha. i don't know. nothing happened anyway.. i don't make moves. and he didn't either.. i got the feeling he was interested but i just wasn't sure and i guess considering who he is, its a pretty delicate situation for me to risk being wrong. he started falling asleep and i was knackered too so i thought.. i'll go to bed and let him lay down. and he protested a little saying if i wanted to stay and watch then feel free, but then when i was like noo you're falling asleep, it's fine.. he was like 'oh thankyou'. so he wanted me to go? i don't know. ARGH.
let's face it, the chance will never arise again, as i can't for the life of me think of a time when we would be in that situation again (alone, at night, on the sofa..), considering i see him maybe once every three months.
this is a very long and silly entry. and no, i am not even close to forgetting about mark.