sinking feeling
i'm tired, already. tired of university before two weeks are up. the only real friends i've made are those who live off campus or are leaving at christmas. the one other friend i thought i had is already phasing me out. i missed a seminar today, already. everything's happening already.
i don't know what to do. i don't know how to make this work for me.
same person, different surroundings.
i envisaged all this before uni started.
putting on a brave face, 'yeah it's really good, uni is ace'
when really i struggle for something to do most nights,
and just popping out to see a friend isn't an option, because i don't really have any friends. except those who clearly no longer want to hang out with me.
wanting to cry most nights (when i'm not drunk) because - if its possible - uni is almost lonelier than home was.
somebody tell me how to be a real person? with real social skills?
i don't know what to do. i don't know how to make this work for me.
same person, different surroundings.
i envisaged all this before uni started.
putting on a brave face, 'yeah it's really good, uni is ace'
when really i struggle for something to do most nights,
and just popping out to see a friend isn't an option, because i don't really have any friends. except those who clearly no longer want to hang out with me.
wanting to cry most nights (when i'm not drunk) because - if its possible - uni is almost lonelier than home was.
somebody tell me how to be a real person? with real social skills?