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so its fall, school is in full gear. work is boring. im overwhelmed. im lonely. i feel like crying a lot. im confused. im teetering on the edge of depressed. i cant concentrate when i have to. im tired. i feel shitty. something is in my arm and its scaring me.
but theres a bright side. im involved in this program called "dont fall down in the hood". this will be my sanity. i wish i could go for more than one day a week, but thats the only way i can do it. its for high school boys that were caught with a gun/weapon, drugs or robbery. the guys are all pretty great so far and i made a buddy (though he told me to never call him buddy haha) super nice. works at UPS and doesnt believe my dad can make good soul food.
im missing a few people. i want something real in my life. im sick of drinking all the time. im sick of spending my money. im sick of meaninglessness.
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but theres a bright side. im involved in this program called "dont fall down in the hood". this will be my sanity. i wish i could go for more than one day a week, but thats the only way i can do it. its for high school boys that were caught with a gun/weapon, drugs or robbery. the guys are all pretty great so far and i made a buddy (though he told me to never call him buddy haha) super nice. works at UPS and doesnt believe my dad can make good soul food.
im missing a few people. i want something real in my life. im sick of drinking all the time. im sick of spending my money. im sick of meaninglessness.
<3