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i can't sleep any longer. i'd like to. blah.
my wrist hurts. my stomach hurts. my head hurts. my heart hurts. (but you don't believe that anyway)
i'm a fuck up.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
and i still can't say it enough.
i'm sorry.
you're such a beautiful person.
you're going to make someone really happy some day.
my sister is going to charlottesville today and it hurts me that she is going to be closer to you than i am.
(like you'd want me to be close to you anyway)
i do still like you (hell i love you). a lot. more than i'm ever willing to admit to right now.
enough so that it hurts every time i think about you.
god.
please be happy.
how could you not be happy about this?
after the way i treated you.
just be happy.
even if it's not with me.
(and i know it will never be with me)
i'm not worth it.
we both know that.