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my grandma died on wednesday. she was old, and it was about time but, i wish i had talked to her more. i hate how sometimes i thought she was a bother when i had to yell to get her to hear me, and all that stuff. she really loved me, even if she gave me..interesting presents for christmas, or the check she wrote in her old scrawly handwriting, things like that i'll miss.
i want to make sure that i let someone know i love them. so i never have to doubt. i really don't want to see anyone cry, especially my dad. it's part of life, but that doesn't mean it's okay. i wish i was better at expressing myself like that, in just phonecalls, or maybe just talking, but i guess i still have so much trouble getting myself out there.
i want to let people know i love them though. i'll have to work on saying that more. just 'i love you'. that way if i lose someone again, at least i'm confident that they know. i hope she knew.