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[ohlittledeath]

So, I wrote this a few nights ago. Read it, comment, do whatever you like. Haven't re-read or corrected anything, it's just a (long) drabble. I'm off to work now, adios.

It's 0:30AM right now while I'm writing this. Usually I'd be in a pub right now, drinking excessive amounts of alcohol and talking to strangers about being drunk and vomiting

Comments

[xxstaybeautiful]

sometimes i want to slap you in the face when it comes to your weight issues.
i think you look healthy. You've got a woman's body. you won't look any prettier if you lost 10 kg's. seriously. But at the same time i know i can't force my opinion on you and you need to realize this yourself, no matter if it takes a few days or a few years. I know it's in your head.

you probably know i don't really like the way you drink. (even though i shouldn't be the one to say that, considering last week) I don't want you to drink because you're bored or have nothing better to do, or to feel accepted, or because it makes your problems and worries go away for a short while. Because, i think, in the long run, you might regret that. (though nothing's wrong with getting drunk every now and then.)

but yeah, from the sideline it's easier to say things, because i can't look in your head. maybe to a certain extent. But yeah, when you say or write things like this, i don't really know what to say. Your mental problems are different from my own, yet in some ways, the same. But i never can think of things to say that might make you consider things, or make you happy. Can't give you the right advice for the right moments. Can't solve your problems.
Being a person who likes to have everything under control (too much OCD) that's quite hard and so i usually keep myself to a distance whenever you make a post like this or something considering mental health.

anyway, i guess, the point of this whole rambling is; I want you to be happy, content and as healthy as can be. I'd rather see a nicky-belly on you than you being an ordinary sack of bones like everyone wants to be.

yes.
I love you.

[ohlittledeath]

I know you want to slap me in the face sometimes, and I know I won't look any better if I lose 10kg, but, yeah. YouknowwhatI'mtalkingabout!

I'm happy you've at least taken the time to write me this comment; despite the fact you distance yourself from me on moments like these. (Not that that's a bad thing, I guess we'd fight so much if you didn't, and confronted me the whole time.) But, anyway, all is well.

I love you!

[xxstaybeautiful]

Luckily i know when to switch my brain off. I do it on the wrong times mostly, though XD
but just so you know, i'm watching you, and i'm always close when you need me.

i think it's important that you know how i react or why i don't react on certain times.
but you don't need me hovering over you like a second mom or something XD blablage
yeah.

here, have some fun.

[ohlittledeath]

I know yer watchin' me, love! And I'm happy for that! And I think it's good you tell me your opnion on things, because it'll help our friendship grow. Wow, I sound incredibly emotional, and cliché. But ye get me point, dontchu?

AND BLACK DAVE IS ALWAYS GOOD. He's got a white smudge near his nose...Michael Jackson, is that you...? Oh, GOD, Graham. Why must you torment me with that wickedly delicious stare of yours.

[ohlittledeath]

Also;...Black Dave with blue eyes...delicious.

[xxstaybeautiful]

don't cry at work! XD

and BLACK DAVE.tm just gave some fellatio to.... Elton John.

[ohlittledeath]

HAHAHAHAHAHA! BAH, viezerik.

[xxstaybeautiful]

I CAN'T STOP IT.

SEE WHAT NOT TALKING TO YOU AS MUCH AS I USUALLY DO ON MONDAYS MAKES ME DO!
IT'S THE ...whatever internet company you have FAULT!

[ohlittledeath]

It's YOU PEE CEE. UPC, damn it. You-fuckin'-Pee-Cee. Excuse me while I vomit! Mondays are good, yes, yet boring. I'm happy it's tuesday today.