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So..I passed drivers ed. I finished my driving today. I was so scared and I don't really know why. Well I do but I don't know the whole root of it. But who would be scared of big heavy metal objects flying at you at 65+ mph. I am for sure. I woke at 3 a.m. this morning and it took me almost an hour to calm myself down enough to go back to sleep and quit worrying about the last day of driving...the interstate. I feel retarded for doing that too by the way.
But I passed. YAY!
I think I did all right today because Dayne drove with me. I wore my Casting Crowns shirt too so we listened to them and I think that calmed me down a lot. I feel fine on regular roads its just the interstate and downtown that scare me for now. And I'm slowly getting better at them too. So yea. Well anyway believe it or not but most of the time Dayne and I had a pretty deep (not too deep) religious discussion. It was cool. Exactly what I needed. He said all the right words just like I needed to hear them. I never knew he was really religious and caring and stuff. When I first met him I thought he was one of those funny show offs. But boy I was wrong. I seem to be wrong a lot in judgments. I need to stop with the judgments.
So anyway it was cool and I'm feeling better about everything. I'm going to try and go to the DMV Friday since Mom is leaving for Kentucky tomorrow. Wow. I miss it. I guess its ok thought. It's just not the same anymore. Especially since we don't go to Grandpa and Grandma's house anymore. I went and saw it last year after they sold it. The people have changed it so much but its funny you know because no matter how big the changes, I still see it like it was. It's just hard going to a house where you almost feel more at home than your own and find out it belongs to someone else and they're making new memories there.I wish I could go back in time. When I was a little girl I had fantasies about getting married and moving there with my family. I guess not.
Wow I got off track. What I was going to say is that Mom is leaving for Kentucky tomorrow and its going to be me, Bennett and Dad for 7 days. A whole week. Someone pray for us. I mean I love my dad to death but him being in charge of all this for a week is going to be a little scary. The way my house works is my mom makes the rules and my dad enforces them. When its my dad's turn to fill Mom's shoes it can sometimes be a little crazy. Oh well it's fun not having someone constantly follow you and tell you to pick this up and clean that up and makes sure whatever gets done. A week of freedom!
Ok well I stayed up a lot later than I planned. So I'm off.
But I passed. YAY!
I think I did all right today because Dayne drove with me. I wore my Casting Crowns shirt too so we listened to them and I think that calmed me down a lot. I feel fine on regular roads its just the interstate and downtown that scare me for now. And I'm slowly getting better at them too. So yea. Well anyway believe it or not but most of the time Dayne and I had a pretty deep (not too deep) religious discussion. It was cool. Exactly what I needed. He said all the right words just like I needed to hear them. I never knew he was really religious and caring and stuff. When I first met him I thought he was one of those funny show offs. But boy I was wrong. I seem to be wrong a lot in judgments. I need to stop with the judgments.
So anyway it was cool and I'm feeling better about everything. I'm going to try and go to the DMV Friday since Mom is leaving for Kentucky tomorrow. Wow. I miss it. I guess its ok thought. It's just not the same anymore. Especially since we don't go to Grandpa and Grandma's house anymore. I went and saw it last year after they sold it. The people have changed it so much but its funny you know because no matter how big the changes, I still see it like it was. It's just hard going to a house where you almost feel more at home than your own and find out it belongs to someone else and they're making new memories there.I wish I could go back in time. When I was a little girl I had fantasies about getting married and moving there with my family. I guess not.
Wow I got off track. What I was going to say is that Mom is leaving for Kentucky tomorrow and its going to be me, Bennett and Dad for 7 days. A whole week. Someone pray for us. I mean I love my dad to death but him being in charge of all this for a week is going to be a little scary. The way my house works is my mom makes the rules and my dad enforces them. When its my dad's turn to fill Mom's shoes it can sometimes be a little crazy. Oh well it's fun not having someone constantly follow you and tell you to pick this up and clean that up and makes sure whatever gets done. A week of freedom!
Ok well I stayed up a lot later than I planned. So I'm off.