WOW, Life = shit when it only revolves around school (which I'm not doing well in) and my crappy job
So. WORK was a bitch today. No one will cover the second half of my shift so I can go see Q And Not U and they won't even let me leave early. And I'd feel really guilty if I called out after all the pestering I gave them about the whole deal. And if I don't call out, I'll feel really guilty because I'll have let Meghann down. I just want to RELLAAXX... I can never ever relax. Work and school are pulling my limbs in opposite directions and it's bruising me. BADLY. I lose so much sleep. And I go crazy. I was ripping a plastic bag into shreds today at work just to keep myself from going apes on someone's assholes. And then! I locked my keys in my car and I had to make my poor, but warm hearted father (thank goodness for that) drive all the way to Target to stand by my car and call AAA.
Wanna know something funny?
I slept in my Target uniform for the past two nights.
That's the epitome of pathetic right there!
My history professor yelled at me in front of the class for sucking at school and told me to leave the class. So I did. And then I went to Northwest Park and laid on the grass and studied for that goddamn class while 10 minutes later, Bryan and Dan scared the shit out of me by showing up and throwing easter Sweet Tarts at me. It was the first relaxing moment I had in a long ass time, just laying on the grass with those two. Though I had to run away to get to work 10 minutes later.
Can I just pause everything that's going on in my life for like a day?
Just so I can catch up and SLEEP?
PLEASE?
Oh and... I have a lovely gut too. And tonight I have come to the final decision that I will do whatever it takes to get rid of it. Even if I have to assume NOT EATING. I don't care, really.
Blah?