venting.
this week has been the worst..i'm having trouble dealing with it.
i woke up this morning feeling like shit..so i stayed home from camp..cause i know it would just make me feel worse.
i feel like i'm losing everything good in my life..and everything/everyone is changing.
i'm not good with change. i've never been good with change.
i hate when i put so much into something, or care so much about someone..only to find out that they don't feel the same..and they don't tell me before it's too late.
this is going to be the hardest thing for me..but i have to do it. i have to become a stronger person and stop thinking that things will work out the next time. i don't know how i'm going to do it..but i'm going to find a way.
i feel so empty, and lost right now. i don't know who to turn to. i don't know who to trust, because i feel like any second people are just gonna get up and walk away from me..because a couple people have. i feel so hurt and so confused...and i haven't felt this way in awhile.
things are never going to be the same though..i need to understand that, but i'm having trouble.
my phones getting shut off tomorrow..:-/ lame.
i know that i am going to compare every other guy in my life to you..and i'm so scared that they aren't going to even come close to you..and how amazing you used to be. i miss the old you..
well i'm sorry, i just needed to vent.
i woke up this morning feeling like shit..so i stayed home from camp..cause i know it would just make me feel worse.
i feel like i'm losing everything good in my life..and everything/everyone is changing.
i'm not good with change. i've never been good with change.
i hate when i put so much into something, or care so much about someone..only to find out that they don't feel the same..and they don't tell me before it's too late.
this is going to be the hardest thing for me..but i have to do it. i have to become a stronger person and stop thinking that things will work out the next time. i don't know how i'm going to do it..but i'm going to find a way.
i feel so empty, and lost right now. i don't know who to turn to. i don't know who to trust, because i feel like any second people are just gonna get up and walk away from me..because a couple people have. i feel so hurt and so confused...and i haven't felt this way in awhile.
things are never going to be the same though..i need to understand that, but i'm having trouble.
my phones getting shut off tomorrow..:-/ lame.
i know that i am going to compare every other guy in my life to you..and i'm so scared that they aren't going to even come close to you..and how amazing you used to be. i miss the old you..
well i'm sorry, i just needed to vent.